Dec 30, 2015

2016 A Year of Uncertainty?

The year is soon to be 2016 and so much has taken place during 2015 and right up to these very moments. For me personally I have gone through much change, triple bypass in January and subsequent recovery and a struggle (yes struggle) to renew, revive and reenergize my relationship with God. From a third person perspective I can see myself running this race, sometimes in circles constantly jumping track, back and forth. When I am on the right track or think I am, the enemy seems to be tagging right along, constantly pulling and tugging on all the ideals, thoughts and habits that are carnally, worldly and egotistically based. I am growing weary and in my own intellect trip up, get distracted, my brain gets cloudy and my initiative diminishes. It is a struggle some days, many days to pursue the call of Christ, to pursue holiness and righteousness. I am constantly reminded how very blind I am and find myself helpless and weak. God grant me a zeal and a purposeful persistence like I have never had before in the coming, days, weeks, months and year. Continue to purge all the unclean things in my life, my mind, seal my lips that I would only speak love and the truth of who You are! Reveal and remove all things that seek to exalt themselves above You and the knowledge of You. Make me holy Father! Make me clean! Circumcise my heart again and again, bring me to my knees and cause me to have the deepest and desperate desire to be in Your presence always. That I might find wisdom, clarity, peace and direction from Your Holy Spirit, that I would lend my ears, my eyes, my voice and my heart to everything you want to accomplish here on this earth, with my life. That I would be completely and totally submitted to you and that nothing else would matter. This upcoming year I am convinced will bring many great changes among our land, among the nations and among the people of God. For a very long time I knew that a separation was going to take place and I have seen that on so many levels. Lord, count me worthy to be one of your sheep! Such a great purging of people, great division. What a tremendous time we live in! The darkness will grow darker and as a result the light will become brighter. We need this during this time and all days and weeks ahead as so much is taking place on a global scale. So much persecution has taken place and continues on a daily basis all across the planet. The Pope is advocating a uniting of all religions, Damascus was just destroyed Isaiah 17:1, the enemies of Israel have increased and I truly believe we are on the edge of WW III. So many things taking place, that many are not aware of or understand their significance. Lord open our eyes, cause our hearts to turn toward you, to seek Your face! I feel certain the increasing discord among nations, communities, religious sects and races will only increase. Economies are crashing and the impact of that will truly begin to be felt in 2016, such great and unbelievable change is about to take place, I can sense it all and our lives will be forever changed. God draw your people together for such a time as this, that we would have plenty of oil in our lamps, burning bright - a light to all that seek You and the peace, comfort and eternal life offered to us. That we would stand strong, equipping ourselves with the Truth of Your live giving and life changing Word. Draw us into an intimate and dynamic relationship with You! May God Bless Us All!

Dec 28, 2015

Not home yet

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Dec 25, 2015

Just in time for Christmas! I really can't promote this book enough and I am not making a single dime off of it. Its...

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Nov 22, 2015

Starting a New Endeavor

Since this is my only public blog, I am posting this here and will move to another blog later. If you or a family member have ever had a hospital bill, you realize how confusing and complex it can be. The in's and out's of hospital billing and reimbursement are daunting at best. I am starting a new endeavor first by publishing my very own eBook that I hope will help consumers understand what goes on behind the scenes and can empower them to negotiate their final expenses. Ultimately this project will be much bigger, but for now... please subscribe for FREE to my mailing list and I will let you know when the next book is complete, which should be a best seller considering the high cost of medical care these days.

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Sep 24, 2015

Israel delusion - by Steve Wohlberg

Very informative and relatively deep study and discussion of several different topics that traditional teaching has been branded into the minds of people for decades if not longer.  After hearing this, along with a few other presentations on the same topics, by others, I am firmly convinced that the traditional idea of a 7 year tribulation is neither scriptural or true.  Daniel's 70th week has already been fulfilled!  There is no 7 year tribulation - great tribulation yes, but not a definitive 7 year tribulation which so many are looking for - specifically after a peace treaty is signed with Israel (there have been many by the way)... Take time to listen to this presentation and ask yourself if you still believe in the traditional teaching of man - the "he" that causes the sacrifices to cease (breaking the covenant) is Jesus!  Not the "antichrist".  Jesus Himself caused the sacrifices to cease because He fulfilled the prophecy by being the ultimate sacrifice - and the covenant was broken as a result to give us the New Covenant.

Sep 5, 2015

"Jesus is Forever" - Pastor Isaac Wimberley in Kari Jobe Forever, with l...

What an awesome message, Truth!  What an indescribable, unimaginable, almighty God is He!

Aug 10, 2015

Eyes and Ears Opening

I was just thinking as I was driving back from Staples to pick up ink for my printer..(yet another burden of this life) He has ruined me (good way) its so amazing how when He brings you up higher, how drastically different your perspective changes. Sometimes its the obvious sin in our lives that we think we need liberation from the most, and sometimes that is true but when He molds your heart and mind to seek the things of God: wisdom, understanding, discernment, repentance, etc and you realize the very things that have deceived you the most are your attachments, your intellect, your reasoning... wow what a difference it makes.

I really can't describe what He has been and is doing with me, and I am no saint, but I so desire to be at the very center of His heart and to be empowered to keep ALL His commands, not only because He loves me and I absolutely love what I know about Him so far (its only a fraction of what IS) - He is answering prayer even when we don't feel it, or see it... we expect from our understanding a manifestation of sorts, which most often is not how its gonna work - ahh the mystery of HIs goodness, His faithfulness, His mercies, His perfection. I know coming across Rebecca Sterling's vision and Rebecca herself is no accident or chance happening. I told someone the other day it feels like (in my spirit when I am able to really focus on it) a very very very deep upwelling of something enormous, like a mighty, mighty current in the deepest ocean, rising and rising... He has turned so many things we live with, into burdens for me, its opened my eyes. The house, the obligations, habits, people coming and going consuming everything in sight, the false teaching and preaching, the deceptions and how deep they go, the constant noise (as opposed to being in silence alone with Him), so many things are changing.

Oh Father I pray! Set us apart! Draw us near, empower us by your Spirit and fill us with wisdom, power and a persistent ache in our hearts to be with You. Empower us to keep ALL your commands, to learn quickly, to be wise, to drink up every drop of your Word that we would be renewed, revived and restored that we would become and remain the remnant, grafted in, bought with your blood, empowered by your Holy Spirit. Open our eyes to see and ears to hear your voice, teach us, comfort us and lead us into all Truth for Your Glory alone!

Thoughts I have when I am out about surprise me. Today as I was driving to staples to get ink I noticed a sign outside a boutique that said "Shoes are louder than words." I immediately thought "What about the Word of God"... when I see commercials I think of the smallest of lies such as "We are rated #1 for.... " this or that, "We are the best in the Nation"... we are surrounded by lies, albeit small and seemingly unimportant, still lies. The deceptions we are subjected to daily never end and no one even realizes it because they have so many attachments, so many idols, so many ties to this world. Few realize how deeply enslaved we are (including myself). The obvious deceptions actually distract us from the subtle ones... we lack understanding or even the desire to acquire it, along with wisdom. We prefer that others think for us, clothe us, feed us, do everything for us and the things we do for ourselves are usually related to some thing or condition we are bound by. So many desires are being removed from me, I can hardly understand it. It feels like I am being turned around in a totally different direction, with laser focus about to come into view, into perspective. I don't want to work in my yard which use to be a peaceful rewarding event, I don't want to buy anything, I don't want to be concerned with my house, my things, I don't want to have to get up and go to work - not because I am lazy, but because I would rather spend that time studying His word, being in His presence..but I find myself in these chains of a mortgage, obligations to people and places, a car loan, medical bills, etc. 

My own reasoning and ideals seem to be leaving me, fast! Its liberation! Its freedom! But I deserve none of it and yet I feel I am a long ways from where He wants me to be. So I pray "God do a quick work in me, destroy every idol in my life now! Break every last piece of me that I would not survive but that I would die with You, that I might be resurrected with You! That the old man would finally be put utterly and completely to death! I want the radical change and faith that would cause me to abandon everything of this world, and trust 100% in Him, at any cost. I really do want that. It scares the you know what out of me, but I know thats what I need, thats the kind of disciple He wants and possibly requires. Surely His grace abounds, but I want to move beyond such great dependence on that grace, I want to be Holy, I want to be righteous!

Aug 6, 2015

Flat Earth Clues | Full Documentary Movie 2015

Almost 3.5 hours long, but well worth your time one weekend or afternoon.  I am not totally sure how I came across the first thing that pointed me to "Flat Earth" material, but now that I am, I have watched and read hours and hours of video, material, etc.  Its not my top priority, but if we are in fact on a flat earth - then its an extremely enlightening revelation - and some indication at how deep, how long and how complex the deception goes and continues.

Aug 5, 2015

Take Up Thy Cross

The Holy Spirit has been bringing this topic up to me frequently over the past several weeks.  

Matthew 16:24-26 24Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me. 25"For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.…

I learned a long time ago that we are taught to "lay our burdens down at the cross" and what I found to be true is that in doing this, we tend to have to return time and time again.  We bring our heartache to the cross, our troubles, our fears, our broken hearts.  And while the cross symbolizes much it does not take the place of Yeshua, Jesus Christ or HIs Holy Spirit.  The burdens we bare needlessly tend to return time and time again, we carry them until we feel we can't any longer then in crisis mode we seek  God on some level.  The Truth is, we shouldn't be carrying those burdens at all, therein lies the problem.  That fact that WE are carrying them, emphasis on ourselves, is the problem.  We are the burden and will continue to be until we do as He said in Matthew.  

We must deny ourselves, our carnal pleasures, our own intellect, our own reasoning, our selfishness and pride, our ways, our thoughts, our speech - until we have been transformed by Him, His Word, His Spirit.  That is the burden to take up our own cross, to deny ourselves and follow Him.  Where do you think He was going when He carried His own cross?  Surely not on a lifelong journey across the land, through many relationships, broken marriages, lost jobs, poverty, sickness.  Surely He wasn't implying this burden to deny yourself would be forever or at least until that one glad morning when this life was o'er, certainly not until we get to that sweet bye and bye?  

He goes on to say anyone who wishes to save his life will lose it and whoever loses his life for His sake would find it.  Now that seems to be an odd contradiction doesn't it.  But take it for it what it is and the context in which He spoke it.  If we don't come to the end of ourselves, hanging on to something that identifies us apart from God, then we seek to preserve our lives.  But if we do what He says and take up our cross and actually follow Him, just a short ways up Calvary's mountain and lose our life for His sake by dying to self, to be born again then surely we will find true life!  

Truly we will inherit the promise of the power of the resurrection.  There can be no resurrection or power of the same unless there is death.  Its so clear to me and such a beautiful and clear message.  Our fleshly minds, our carnal nature is always at odds with the holiness, purity and sanctity of God.  He tells us clearly how to put to death those things that are against Him.  

Romans 8:12-14 12So then, brethren, we are under obligation, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh-- 13for if you are living according to the flesh, you must die; but if by the Spirit you are putting to death the deeds of the body, you will live. 14For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are the sons of God...

Likewise we can renew our minds through His Word.   

Ephesians 5:25-27 25Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself up for her, 26so that He might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, 27that He might present to Himself the church in all her glory, having no spot or wrinkle or any such thing; but that she would be holy and blameless.…

Romans 12:1-3 1Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. 2And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect. 3For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think; but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith.…

This to me is really the beginning of Life.  Understanding the necessity and benefit of taking up our own cross, denying ourselves and following Him.  If you haven't made that walk up to Calvary, while it is a painful and sometimes agonizing process, and sometimes the burden of our own cross, our own lives may be the heaviest to bare, He promises that when we do and follow Him, even unto death, spiritually and otherwise we will have life eternal, abundant life, a ressurected life!  To be born of His Holy Spirit what an awesome exchange that is!  

Aug 1, 2015


Its overwhelmingly amazing to me how quick God can and does work in our lives when we humble ourselves and seek Him.  

Over the past few weeks, I have found myself crying out to Him with a repentant heart, with a desire to be liberated from many things.  He is growing my faith, increasing my desire to seek and know Him and to be in His presence.  He is increasing my knowledge of His Word and acquainting me more intimately with His Holy Spirit!  

At every turn, no matter what it is He has placed on my heart and mind, He provides so much confirmation and is a living witness to the testimony of Himself, that is alive and well within me!  

As the days and hours pass, I feel myself almost as if I am in a whirlwhind, that is growing stronger, taller, wider and more powerful - taking me to places I have never known.  I am filled with excitement and reverent fear of the One who loves me!  Who knows me and accepts me!  

I can't even convey with words this miraculous transformation that seems to be happening, I can't even describe it.  I find myself constantly speaking to Him and listening for His voice.  How I want to be alone witih Him always, to do nothing but spend time in His presence and study more, seek His face more, to know Him like I have never known Him.  I continue to pray "God do a quick work in me, circumsize every evil thing, every thing that seeks to exalt itself above you in my heart that nothing of me would be left, only You, only You! Set me apart, and separate me from all the things that have so easily beseeched me in the past and cause my paths to be straight and my walk to be upright, holy and blameless before You!  Open my eyes that I will see and ears that I will hear.  Seal my lips that I would speak no evil and no unclean utterance would escape my mouth!  Help me to guard my thoughts that no lust of the flesh or the intellect would deceive me, and keep my eyes on You Father, that I would not look away to become captive by any evil thing, ensnared by any plot the enemy devises against me!  Give me strength and wisdom that I might be a light to those around me that You should be seen and I would be hidden within, that I could not boast in any work, but that You would receive all honor and glory and praise!  I want nothing of this world, because it has served only death and destruction, but I want more of You who is Life and gives life eternal!  Raise me up with strength and wisdom, discernment and determination to serve You all the days of my life!  

Jul 30, 2015

His Great Love

You've drawn  me in like a mighty magnet and you won't let go.  Its the sweetest thing I know.  You hear my cry, you answer my call and you draw me near!  

You satisfy me, but yet I want more!  You whisper gently in my ear, words of great encouragement and piercing truth!  You love me!  You make me smile!  

Your foundation is firm and solid as a rock, your borders are without limitation and your oceans vast and deep!  Your presence, your sweet presence is like a friend from long long ago, steady, constant, comforting and powerful!  

You make me and mold me, you fashion me with your very own hands, causing my crooked path to become straight, my walk to be upright!  You have picked me up, and placed me upon my feet, catching me when I stumble and lifting me up when I fall.  You carry me when I can't carry myself, when I am weak you ARE strong!  

You open my eyes that I might behold You, and see you as you are, you open my ears that I might receive your Word and be transformed by your Truth!  

No greater Joy, no greater Peace, no greater Assurance, than what I have found in You!  

You are indeed the lover of my soul, incomprehensible, unimaginable, great and mighty You are!  Yet you are approachable and you welcome me with open arms, with an embrace that is eternal!  

You are mine and I am yours, I belong to You!  I belong to You!  

Jul 27, 2015


I am beginning to conclude that if all the people who call themselves Christians AND who actually attempted to follow Jesus' example and keep God's commandments, along with many other statutes, precepts... if they truly sought to live holy, righteous and blameless lives before God if they actually spent more time in prayer than they did perusing the net, holding fund raisers, posting on facebook, putting together programs...and stopped engaging non-believers, fighting with those who have no interest in God or His ways...I dare say we would have a church that Jesus talked about, one clothed in glory, power, one that was obvious to believers and non-believers alike...and totally capable of so much more.  Albeit there would only be a handful..... but I am reminded of the few that housed Noah's Ark.  I am reminded of Moses.. 

The clarity God brings when we study His word, is remarkable, its obvious.  When I speak about God to anyone or the things of God it becomes immediately apparent who is interested and who isn't.  Typically they either get engaged and asked questions or interrupt you with another topic, or just outright dismiss you.  Thats a clue folks... I am learning so very quickly what the scripture means when it says don't cast your pearls before swine.  If people want the truth, they will ask for it, appeal to it, search for it, seek it out and they will be receptive to it when they are fortunate enough to hear it.  Continue to pray for them and for yourselves to be good stewards of the Word, but don't waste your time on those who reject you or the message God has placed in your heart.  God may have someone else to whom their ears are open to, rather than you, trust God and move on.  

The day will come sooner than later I am certain, when the Truth isn't so readily available.  It will be unfortunate when it no longer is... Amos 8:11 tells us this very thing.  We have willfully disregarded God and His Word.  Soon we will thirst for it and it will not be found, except in those who have repented of their sins and followed His commands, who have a personal relationship with God through His Holy Spirit.  

Its becoming so evident to me who the true followers of Jesus are, I pray that I become more like Him, to cast aside all the things of this world, to spend the majority of my time seeking Him and His counsel, studying and meditating upon His word.  God connect me with true saints!  Many are called but few are chosen, because the majority have and continue to reject you!  They have no joy, no peace, no power!  White washed sepulchres full of dead men's bones!  Where are the ones crying out to You!  Travailing in anguish especially at this time as the world around us grows darker in deep sin and willful ignorance!  

Jul 24, 2015

A Shift..

God is so faithful!  He is always ready to keep His promises, to exercise His commitment toward us. For many months, weeks and days I have had a growing burden on my heart and a growing fear of God.  He says in His Word, that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

I see what is taking place across the land, across the entire planet.  I have watched for many many years the things that tell me we are certainly living in that time prophesied centuries ago.  A time when darkness envelopes the earth, when wars and rumors of wars are evident, when natural disasters and calamity grow worse and the hearts of men turn toward selfish pleasure.  I have been one of those men.

I have grown sick of this world, of my own sin and betrayal of the One who freely offers a way to salvation and abundant life.  I have felt many times that I was on the brink of death of going over the edge of being sealed in a fate I feared, but God had other plans, He always did.  He called me first, before the world and all that is in it did.  He was first and will be the last.

Ephesians 1:3-5 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and blameless before Him.  In love.  He predestined us to adoption as sons through Jesus Christ to Himself according to the kind intention of His will...

He has answered many prayers.  One of those prayers has been and continues to be to grant me repentance, to give me a repentant heart.

2 Timothy 2:24-26  The Lord's bond-servant must not be quarrelsome, but be kind to all, able to teach, patient when wronged, with gentleness correcting those who are in opposition, if perhaps God may grant them repentance leading to the knowledge of the truth, and they may come to their sense and escape from the snare of the devil, having been held captive by him to do his will.   (He is still working on me here)

2 Chronicles 7:14 If my people who are called by name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

1 John 1:9  If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Acts 3:19  Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord

Ezekiel 18:21-23 But if the wicked will turn all his sins that he hath committed, and keep all my statutes, and do that which is lawful and right, he shall surely live, he shall not die.  All his transgressions that he hath committed, they shall not be mentioned unto him:  in his righteousness that he hath done he shall live.  Have I any pleasure at all that the wicked should die? saith the Lord God and not that he should return from his ways, and live?

2 Peter 3:9  The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.

Proverbs 28:13  He that covereth his sins shall not prosper, but whosoever confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.

Acts 2:38  Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.

2 Corinthians 7:9-11  Now I rejoice, not that ye were made sorry, but that ye sorrowed to repentance: for ye were made sorry after a godly manner, that ye might receive damage by us in nothing.  For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of:  but the sorrow of the world worketh death.  For behold this selfsame thing, that ye sorrowed after a godly sort, what carefulness it wrought in you, yea, what clearing of yourselves, yea, what indignation, yea, what fear, yea what vehement desire, yea, what zeal, yea, what revenge!  In all things ye have approved yourselves to be clear in this matter.

I am undone by your mercy and grace and you confirm your Word to me over and over again. How great you are, my God!

Psalm 119:174-176  I long for your salvation, O Lord, and your law is my delight.  Let my soul live and praise you, and let your rules help me.  I have gone astray like a lost sheep, seek your servant, for I do not forget your commandments.

I can't imagine anyone that truly wants to make God first in their lives, to know Him, to experience His presence like never before... I can't imagine not constantly seeking repentance to be free of sin to be made holy and righteous before Him.  I can't comprehend anything less because the enemy has sought to destroy me from every angle, at every breath.  Surely I have been deceived on many levels and as God sets the captive (me) free, He also reveals the enemy's devices, He identifies those areas where I was weak and disillusioned, deceived and determined in my own strength.

What a time we live in!  What great darkness abounds and appears to be growing at a rapid pace.  For a long time my intellect and assuredness of what the enemy was doing caused me to be self righteous and I obsessed about the things that drew my attention.  Having thought this was important and that I was somehow in the know about so much, I became prideful in my heart and it eventually led me down familiar paths, paths that led me into deeper bondage to sin.  God revealed to me, that while it is important to not be ignorant of the enemy's devices, it would be of no value if I didn't know Him.

I could go into so much detail and write a hundred books on various topics, things I have seen, witnessed and educated myself with along this journey - but to no avail if I am unable to tell you about the One who overcame and the way He has made for us.  To be co-heirs with Christ!

I can feel and sense in my spirit through His own, that we are approaching so much, so much I can't convey with words, with writing, or any form of communication.  I have prayed for a long time off and on:  "God where are the true saints?"  I need that kind of accountability in my life, I need to see the Church in the glory and power that you spoke of so many times, so long ago.  Where is that Church? Where is your Bride Father?  The world needs your Church, they need to see you through the ones that you are raising up.  We need you Father!  We need you, where are the saints Lord, where are they?

He has given me many visions and dreams, many I don't even remember the details of but understand the Truth that was conveyed.  He has also assured me of so much through those same visions and dreams, which I can't forget.  One being of a great division or perhaps "falling away" that will be witnessed which I now understand at least in part, is needed because more and more the true followers of Christ, the true saints will be revealed.  As the darkness grows darker, the lights will shine brighter!  He showed me the false bride or church years ago and I am seeing it clearer and clearer today.  I am amazed at Him, truly amazed at the reality of God!

I almost can't even listen to a preacher, teacher, pastor or evangelist ordained or not, that do not speak of repentance especially at this critical time in the history of the world.  The time is so very very short.

I use to have a growing fear of what was and is taking place in the world today, but more and more He is giving me a great peace that I can't really understand or convey.  I am almost filled with an overwhelming excitement of the things to come because I know while there will be great turmoil, persecution and evil, there will also be a great outpouring of His spirit and the Church the true Church will be revealed.  It will become so crystal clear to so many that are seeking Him and His presence.  What an awesome time it will be!  I relayed this feeling to a friend via facebook today and the only thing I can compare it to, is like the bubbling of a very deep and large well... bubbling up and its so large that I hear a distant roar, not like a bubbling, babbling brook, but of a mighty ocean, even the joy that this represents seems overwhelming.  The peace is overwhelming!  Its like hearing or feeling the whole expanse of Heaven and everyone that inhabits it, along with the angels innumerable keying up to sing the most powerful and mighty song or chorus they have every sung, never before.  Its overwhelming I tell you!  It reminds me of the near death like experience I had and witnessed billions upon billions of angels singing in perfect harmony, but this is different, this is more powerful, more exciting, than anything ever before.  Everything will be shaken, almost as if eternity itself could be shaken... its an awesome sight, and feeling.

He is girding my path as it becomes more narrow and straight.  This is His Word, that His spirit within me bares witness with.. I can see it so clearly - His Truth is girding up my path!  Almost like the corralling of livestock as the entry way into the slaughter house grows more narrow, only I am no longer being led to slaughter!!!  Praise God!  The enemy works the same way, only he captivates you with sin, with self seeking desire, with lies!  We are deceived into believing lies, and when we realize the truth, we find ourselves in bondage, only to be fed more lies that there is no escape! But praise God, He has made a way!  He has made a way!

Psalm 119:7-15  I will praise you with an upright heart, when I learn your righteous rules.  I will keep your statutes; do not utterly forsake me!  How can a young man keep his way pure?  By guarding it according to your word.  With my whole heart I seek you; let me not wander from your commandments!  I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you...

Psalm 119:34-38  Give me understanding, that I may keep your law and observe it with my whole heart.  Lead me in the path of your commandments, for I delight in it.  Incline my heart to your testimonies, and not to selfish gain!  Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things; and give me life in your ways.  Confirm to your servant your promise, that you may be feared.

John 8:34-36  Jesus answered them, "Truly, truly I say to you, everyone who commits sin is the slave of sin.  And a slave does not abide in the house forever, but a son abides forever.  Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed."

I could write for many more days on end without stopping.  Surely my prayer continues to be:  "Father draw me close, continue to grant me a repentant heart that I might draw closer to You and be found worthy to even be in Your Presence.  That I would forsake all the things of this world to glorify You.  That I might be a light unto the world as you have called me to be, by the power and purpose of Your Spirit alone!  Father my heart cries out to You that You would reveal Your power and might to the world through those You call your own!  That Your people who are called by Your Name, would humble themselves and repent!  That you would pour out Your Spirit upon all flesh!  Do a quick work in me:

Joel 2:24-26 The threshing floors will be full of grain, and the vats will overflow with the new wine and oil.  "Then I will make up to you for the years that the swarming locust and the gnawing locust, has eaten, the creeping locust, the stripping locust and the gnawing locust, My great army which I sent among you.  You will have plenty to eat and be satisfied and praise the name of the Lord your God, who has dealt wondrously with you; then My people will never be put to shame...

Joel 2:28  And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh; your sons and daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, and your young men shall see visions.

Isaiah 61:1-3 The Spirit of Lord is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek, he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; to appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.

Surely a shift is taking place within my spirit, and I know its because I have prayed for repentance and He has answered me!  Thank you Father, thank You!

And something new that has come about... I have asked Him to grow my faith.. He is doing just that!  I don't know how, but in times past when I prayed for something, I typically left the prayer with hope that He heard me, hope that it would come to pass.  Of course some of those prayers were answered in the way I wanted, and some were answered with "No".. but I didn't realize it was "No" until I realized it was "No" that I needed.  Today that still holds true, but now I can see past the obstacles, the doubt, the fog if you will.  I can see the promise, I can see the answer on its way, although I can't make out the details, I can certainly make out His faithfulness! Which to me is worth more than the thing or situation I may have prayed about.  Its like a super-sized blessing, beyond words!  His Faithfulness - it melts my heart really.. To see His promise!  I wish I could explain it better, but I simply am left without words!

666 Mark of the Beast - Fema: United Nations Death By Guillotine - Sunda...

Enforced Sunday Worship Laws Cox 05 Mark of The Beast

This has been a topic of study for me recently especially with the latest encyclical by the Pope and his upcoming visit to the U.S. This encyclical sets up the mandate that many believe will come to enforce Blue Laws, which is also known as the Sunday Law - first created by the Roman Catholic Church in 321 AD, officially it was some time after that when it was enforced. This law, is a direct breaking of the 4th commandment, which is the keeping of the Sabbath. The Sabbath is the 7th day of the week, which is Saturday - however, most of the world perceive Sunday as the Sabbath. The Holy Sabbath which is Saturday was changed to Sunday by the Catholic Church. It is interesting to note the reason given by the Pope for the recommendation for enforcing the "Sabbath" is due to climate change and how the increasing storms, and various and disastrous climatic related events are directly connected with the sin of man. Enforcing the "Sabbath" would give the people and the planet a day of rest as ordained by God. The only problem being that the Sabbath is not Sunday but it is Saturday. It is also interesting to note that Obama stated that the U.S. would be the leader in this effort, implying that America would be the first nation to enforce this practice on it's people, in essence forcing the people to break the commandment of God. Catholic Record Sept 1 1923 "Sunday is our mark of authority... The church is above the Bible, and this transference of Sabbath observance is proof of that fact." The Roman Catechism 1985: "The civil authorities should be urged to cooperate with the church in maintaining and strengthening this public worship of God, and to support with their own authority the regulations set down by the church's pastor. For it is only in this way that the faithful will understand why it is Sunday and not the Sabbath day that we keep holy." Catechism of the Catholic Church - Paragraph 2188, 1994 Edition: "In respecting religious liberty and the common good of all, Christians should seek recognition of Sundays and the Church's holy days as legal holidays. It is time that we demonstrate our Catholic vitality and engage the public policy debate. We have the power and the people to embark on this movement - a movement that will benefit all Americans."

Revelation 14:12 Here is the patience of the saints; here are those who keep the commandments of God and the faith of Jesus. Upholding God's Sabbath is one of those commandments.

Acts 5:29 But Peter and the other apostles answered and said: "We ought to obey God rather than men."

The traditions of men nullify the Word of God.

Jul 20, 2015


I can't seem to get enough studying and watching/listening to messages that God is leading me to.  I am so grateful for the conviction of His Holy Spirit, who is leading, guiding and directing.  I am gaining such a deeper more sure understanding of so many things.  

He became the sin of man, that we might become the righteousness of God through faith in the One who was born of a virgin under the law, Yeshua, who lived a blameless life, who knew no sin, but died in our place, who became the sacrifice for all.  Who rose again and went to the Father and sent us the comforter, The Holy Spirit!  Yeshua is our salvation!  He is our one and only saviour!  No other can or will do! 

Truth faith is expressed through repentance!  Unless we repent we will likewise perish!

It was by His obedience to God, to His law, that paved the way to our salvation.  We are incapable of keeping the law and transgession of the law just once is death. The wages of sin is death!  But He came not to abolish the law but to fulfill it!  And in doing so and willingly offering Himself up as the only appropriate and complete sacrifice, He paid the penalty for all of our transgressions, all of our sin!  He indeed is the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Him, through our faith in Him in believing in Him and following Him!  And through that faith which God counts as righteousness because of His sacrifice, He calls us to repentance, to holiness and He empowers us to accomplish this through His Holy Spirit, who leads, guides, directs, comforts and convicts.  He is our comforter, our teacher, our help in times of trouble, our friend and indeed, indeed the lover of our soul!  As we study the living Word of God, His Spirit within us bares witness to the testimony of The Christ, Jesus of Nazareth, the Holy Son of God..and leads us into all truth!  From glory to glory, that we might received and experience the fullness of Christ, of His Spirit!  

Jul 18, 2015

Come with me - Phil Collins - Live

Jul 17, 2015


I can only feel a growing perplexity and great sadness overtake my heart, my spirit, my mind as I sit here this evening. Just like millions across the planet I see the news, I see the propaganda, I see people fighting amongst themselves, murders, evil at every turn. I literally see everything God warned us of happening moment by moment, but in every moment. For years I have watched so many things and I am convinced that the Word of God is true and this time is growing very very short. As a result God has placed a growing urgency in my spirit to get it right and get right with Him. To repent! To draw close to Him to put away the things of this world, the ideals, the false teaching, the pride, the arrogance, the confusion, the sin! To give my life, to give my time, my energy, my attention, my prayers, my whole being to Him. So many, so many people who call themselves men and women of God are growing angry and are attempting to do what they think is taking a stand while their words of fierce anger and frustration seem warranted, it has become so blatantly obvious the level of confusion and lack so many of us have and are experiencing. We are spiritually bankrupt. When I see someone say we need to fight back and the way to do that is to fly our flags high, go to our courts, our congressmen, our president I am deeply sickened by the reality of what is actually taking place. We should be on our knees in deep repentance, deep sorrow, grieving and crying out with everything we have in us to the One True Living God! One of the headlines I saw today was "Four of our military men died today, what are we going to do about it?" I heard in my spirit: My innocent children die by the thousands each day and you have done nothing! Your anger toward each other and your rebellious heart will only bring more pain and suffering. You have neglected me, you have turned your backs on me and you stand there in your arrogance and pride and think that your words have value, they do not, your anger should be aimed at yourselves, you nation full of heathens and evil doers, especially those of you who call yourselves my disciples. You are the reason these men died today, you are the reason thousands of innocent children die every day, you are the reason - because you have done nothing and now because the evil has encroached upon your own house, your own land, you raise your voice, one I will not hear until you humble yourselves and repent!" All of these words apply to me personally. Every single one. This country, the U.S.A is NOT and I repeat is NOT a great nation and has not been for many many decades. Sure we have had great riches, great power and great recognition across the planet, but our time is up. The evil that runs through every state, city and town will be revealed and the cancerous sores that have been hidden away will be known and the people of this land will see the filth that we have piled upon ourselves and our children. If we were a great nation in God's eyes do you think for a minute we would not have His blessing? We have lost our way and purposefully neglected and rejected God. And some stand in awe and shock that we are suffering even just a little?? I am amazed at the complete and utter blindness that afflicts so many and so many more who call themselves Christians. Who profess His name but lack His power. God help us! God help me! God could care less about a flag of any type, be it confederate or one that bears a cross - they are idols no matter the story we connect with them. Its ironic that some of the very things that are causing division in the land, are idols. God could care less what your past is, He is concerned about your future and that future is in the very next breath you take if we are blessed to even have it. But yet, we fight and fight and cause division and confusion, discord and many do it in the name of Christ. What great blasphemies, what great sin do we commit? For any true man or woman of God, there should be peace and joy no matter the times, no matter the wars, the differences, the opinions of others. This is the time He prophesied and told us about - should we be so surprised? We should be rejoicing and pursuing Him even more, but so many are deceived so many. I am sickened in my spirit today, and many days - more and more I feel the growing need to lock myself away and be with God, to seek His face, His counsel, His wisdom - to continually be in prayer. I can only imagine the real anguish and desperation Jesus felt in the garden when He prayed alone to God, His Father. What a great burden He bore for all mankind. Lord, Lord, continue to open my eyes, lay bare my heart that every evil and detestable thing would be consumed by You that I would be found worthy, to be a light to the world, to seek you continuously and love you with my whole being. Crucify me Lord! I am nothing, nothing apart from You! Cause me to walk upright, to seek You for every single second of my life, and cause me to delight in all your ways, to love every statute and command that I might be made Holy through and by Your Spirit, to be convicted and sanctified that the old man would indeed completely and utterly die, that the new man would live and breathe! God forgive us forgive us of our great sin, of our neglect, our willful turning our backs on You. Cause our hearts to be broken God, that we would turn from every wicked way and thought and follow You!

Jul 11, 2015

Pray and Be Alone With God - Paul Washer

Paul Washer - Shocking Message (full length - HQ)

This is one of the most powerful messages of repentance I have ever heard.  I am sure I will watch it time and time again until every single truth revealed in this message is seated deep within my heart and mind.

Urgency to Repent and Renew my mind

God has put fear in my heart, which is an answer to prayer. He says in His word that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

Proverbs 9:10 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.

So few in today’s world even believe in God, or rather believe God. There is a huge difference. Many believe He exists, even satan does, but few very very few believe Him at His word for a million reasons. The whole world has been deceived on so many levels for so long, I am not excluded. The time is very short, the world around us is collapsing, evil is on all sides and the depravity and perversions grow by the minute. I have been a part of this, but God has called me out, to be holy, to seek Him, to seek righteousness and I have been such a hypocrite. God forgive me! My heart is dark and my intellect deceives me. Yet, He still has not forsaken me. I fear that (like many) I will suffer great judgment and wrath, but He speaks to me saying He is still here, there is still time for me to repent of my sins fully and to walk in His ways. The carnal mind has such great power over our flesh, but He has greater power. Many times I have tried to “figure it all out” and try in my own strength to withstand temptation, but I have failed miserably. I want nothing of myself to exist anymore. I am wretched, poor, naked and blind. God forgive me! God forgive me! Surely, surely I pray God give me wisdom, give me strength, give me the desires of YOUR heart and not my own, my heart is dark and evil.

Jeremiah 17:8-10 For he will be like a tree planted by the water, that extends its roots by a stream and will not fear when the heat comes; but its leaves will be green, and it will not be anxious in a year of drought nor cease to yield fruit. The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; who can understand it? I, the Lord, search the heart, I test the mind, even to give each man according to his ways, according to the results of his deeds..

Mark 7:20-22 "That which proceeds out of the man, that is what defiles the man. "For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed the evil thoughts, fornications, thefts, murders, adulteries, deeds of coveting and wickedness, as well as deceit, sensuality, envy, slander, pride and foolishness. I need a new heart! I need a new mind.

Psalm 51:10 “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me”

Ezekiel 36:25-27 Then I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean, I will cleanse you from all your filthiness and from all your idols. Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will be careful to observe My ordinances. A new mind comes from:

Romans 12:1-3 Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect. For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think, but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith.

Ephesians 5:26 That He (Christ) might sanctify and cleanse it (the Church) with the washing of water by the word. 

I must continually wash my mind, that it might be renewed, with the Word of the Lord. He has placed such an urgency in my heart to walk upright, holy and blameless before Him! I am also burdened with many “things” of this world and while He is calling me to great repentance and time alone with Him, in His Word, in His presence - I must also cast off the things of this world both physical and spiritual. I am not fully aware of what this ultimately means, but He has urged me to start with my house - to sell many possessions or at least give them away. For now that seems a little overwhelming but He is bringing me to a place of not wanting anything, because lately everything seems to be a burden and there is no joy or satisfaction in the things I possess. I also recently withdrew from online classes that I was working on toward the completion of a degree - and He revealed to me that these are just burdens during this time. I will have no time to complete the degree, I feel very strongly - not because I think i won’t be here, but moreso because the work of Him in my life is becoming paramount. A degree in the times that are upon us will have no value. I have wasted so much time and I pray that He will do a very quick work in my life, my spirit, my mind!
My office is filled with books on many topics, many that have helped teach me a little about God and about the world we live in from a spiritual perspective, but none of it has great value. The books themselves simply take up space and cause me to have attachments to an intellect that in the light of God’s wisdom, is foolishness. He is the great Teacher! His Spirit is here for us, for just that.

John 14:25-26 These things I have spoken to you while abiding with you. But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you.

John 14:16 And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever.

John 16:13 But when He, the Spirit of Truth, comes, He will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on His own, He will only speak what He hears, and He will tell you what is yet to come.

1 John 2:27 As for you, the anointing you received from Him remains in you, and you do not need anyone to teach you. But as His anointing teaches you about all things and as that anointing is real, not counterfeit, just as it has taught you, remain in Him.
He reminds of this passage as I close today’s post.

Habakkuk 2:1-3 I will stand on my guard post and station myself on the rampart; and I will keep watch to see what He will speak to me, and how I may reply when I am reproved. Then the Lord answered me and said, “Record the vision and inscribe it on tablets, that the one who read it may run. For the vision is yet for the appointed time; it hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; for it will certainly come, it will not delay…."

Obama, Tsunami and Future of USA ~ Time to Repent! Dr Patricia Green

Jul 9, 2015

A Call To Repentance Through John Mulinde's Testimony Jesus Is Coming ...

Jul 6, 2015

To Judge or Not to Judge

I posted this earlier on Facebook... it burdens my heart that so many so called Christians are policing the world with their judgement and condemnation when God clearly states He is the judge, and we will judge the world at our appointed time, not now. We are to judge our fellow brothers and sisters, i.e. born again believers. Otherwise our so called judgment of those outside of the church, the true church, is condemnation, not justice, not mercy or grace. So many so called christians, say they point out the sin in another's life (non- believers) because they don't want them to go to hell... thats BS... they want to condemn they want to be like God and judge. If they didn't want them to go to hell then they would spend their time telling them the good news and why its good news and they would do everything they possibly could to get them in front of Jesus, who by His Holy Spirit will convict them, not judge them of their sins, that they might seek holiness and a blameless life, that they might become living sacrifices for our King!

This division that is taking place is shaking me and the world up, but the greatest part about it? Its bringing great contrast between the wolves and the sheep, between the wheat and the chaff. Praise God! The dark is getting darker all the while making the light shine brighter... I hope and pray we can tell the difference between the One True Light of God, and the one who shows himself as an angel of light and all his ministers. Its time we stop condemning the world and start leading people to the saving grace of God. Did He not love us while we were yet sinners, did He not die for us while we were in sin, did He not forgive us to bring us into repentance to turn from our wicked ways and be renewed, refreshed, revived?

Here is my post from Facebook...

I have heard so many say as Christians we are to judge and doing so by the fruit others produce. But I want to make a point, a distinction for those that know me.. the word "Christian" as it as come to be in today's world is repulsive to me. Because it, in today's world basically means someone believes in God. It does not mean that by those beliefs they live their lives, that they uphold the statutes, commands, and precepts of the One True Living God. Satan believes in God...and if you say you are a Christian but are not also a follower of Christ, His disciple (and this applies to me) then we are no more set apart than the one who fell from heaven.. So Yes I can see very clearly why "Christians" judge and feel entitled to do so, because they lack the conviction of the Holy Spirit of the Love of God, the patience and forgiveness that He has given, they lack His mercy and grace and no it is was not free, surely we don't pay the price, but He did, with His life. They lack a deep concern for the salvation of one's soul, instead placing great value on the sin in a person's life. A true follower of Christ (not necessarily a Christian in today's context) will understand these words which He has brought to mind today.. 1 Corinthians 5:11-12 11But actually, I wrote to you not to associate with any so-called brother if he is an immoral person, or covetous, or an idolater, or a reviler, or a drunkard, or a swindler-- not even to eat with such a one. 12For what have I to do with judging outsiders? Do you not judge those who are within the church? 13But those who are outside, God judges. REMOVE THE WICKED MAN FROM AMONG YOURSELVES. We have no place or part in judging the world until the appointed time (1 Corinthians 6:2) according to this scripture and many others that support this, we do have a part in rightly judging one another, with love and mercy, grace and compassion - one another being fellow brothers and sisters and not all are our brothers and sisters (but could be when they are born again if we can ever get past their sin and help lead them there)....and attempting to pass judgment on those only widens the gap between us. I firmly believe this and see the fruit that comes from not following this precept.

Homeward Bound: Simple Questions

Homeward Bound: Simple Questions

Jul 5, 2015


By Jeff Capps, Daniel Clay, Randy Fuller and Isaac Wimberley

My sins are before me, transgressions so great
Against You, and You only, have I turned away

I’ve worshiped creation, I’ve chosen my pride
From You, and You only, have I tried to hide

Lord I confess my need
Your mercy washes me

My heart is uncovered, my soul is laid bare
To You, and You only, will I lift my head

Lord I confess my need
Your mercy washes me

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercies will never end
He is my God, my portion forever
I find my hope in Him

Great is Thy faithfulness

Let the bones You have broken rejoice
In the silence I lift up my voice

Great is Thy faithfulness

"Jesus is Forever" - Pastor Isaac Wimberley in Kari Jobe Forever, with l...

I have to post this again... such a powerful message.  If this doesn't inspire you I am not sure what will.

Spiritual Earthquake for the Church

God has just brought to mind so many things from the past, dreams, visions, other warnings or dreams from others.. Jonathan Cahn just recently spoke about the apostate church and the division between the "two Christianities" which you can find a link to in my earlier posts of the day.... likewise God brought back to memory this vision or dream by Sean Starr from 2012. I am reposting the link here for your review.  I feel strongly with the recent events and ongoing division that we are experiencing, the time of this particular message is now or soon to be.

The good thing about the "two christianities" at least for me, is that it will become even more clear to those seeking God, who the True Body of Christ is and is not.  The division will become so stark there will be little question as to who are part of His Bride and who is not.  The choice will be clear, the clarity this will bring will be such a blessing to so many - even as we are persecuted.

God indeed will allow the foundations of this nation to be shaken and a line will be drawn in the sand.  I see this as a tremendous blessing because as the darkness grows darker the lights will shine brighter and many will be called to repentance and our yes will be yes and our no will be no!  No to a lukewarm life, and we will be set on fire for God!

Jonathan Cahn - "End of Christian America"

Two Christianities? Jonathan Cahn - End of Christian America is Here

End of Christian America is Here - click this link to go to the article. This article detailing recent commentary and discussion by Jonathan Cahn regarding the end of "Christian America" reminds me of a vision God gave me a long time ago. This has to do with the apostate Church or the falling away. I have spoken many times about great division taking place among the people of the world and it seems to have picked up the pace especially in these last several weeks. This is in light of the recent shootings in SC (which I believe is a false flag to stir more tension and racial division) as well as the recent ruling by the U.S. Supreme Court to allow and recognize same-sex marriages. For many years I have asked God where the true saints were. It hasn't been so obvious because the man-made doctrine and lukewarm attitudes of the "Church" has made it difficult at best to discern. Surely I have prayed for discernment and continue. But I fully believe this will a time of great persecution and it will be those who are being persecuted that will reveal to me and so many others, the true followers of Christ. The vision He gave me of the "False Church" can be found here

Behold The Risen Christ - The Village Church Live EP, "Look And See"

Bakers Facing $135K Fine Over Wedding Cake for Same-Sex Couple Speak Out

This news recently has really stirred me up a little. Not because I am angry at the judge's decision - or surprised of the obvious persecution - and I can't say how I would decide if I had been this couple - but I can say, that if I were asked to do something that conflicted with my religious beliefs, I would have to refuse. I have spent a great deal of my life compromising what I believed to be true which makes me a hypocrite. More than ever before I think we have greater opportunities to stand up for what we believe in, but moreso to help those by prayer, by community, by conviction who share a common belief in the One True God and as we seek Him and seek to live righteous and holy lives, we should take advantage of those opportunities. It would have been one thing if the judge had ordered them to make the cake in the way the two women wanted, but its quite a different thing to fine them $135,000 - quite a bit more money than the average person or even couple earns in a year, and to place a gag order to keep this couple from even speaking about why they refused. What happened to "let us reason together"... how can a community expect tolerance and acceptance when they don't provide it themselves and much more take away the livelihood of an entire family and their freedom of speech? If you feel led to help this couple and their family out, to show support, please do I have provided a link below the video.

Help Melissa & Aaron Klein



So I wake up this morning to find posts regarding the decision to fine the Oregon Bakery that refused to write an inscription on a lesbian couples' cake, $135,000 and to add to that, the judge also placed a gag order on the couple to silence them from speaking about their decision or their beliefs which is the basis for their decision.

This and so many other things happening in the world is the work of the enemy to divide and divide and divide some more.  Its unfortunate for both sides, but I think more for the homosexual community.  They want inclusion, to be treated equal to be validated, etc.  But this kind of unfair persecution of Christians causes more division.  But we know these things will take place and it will get worse but we should count it all joy to be hated for the cause of Christ, to be persecuted.  Even so, the enemy will continue to use this case and many more to come, to silence followers of Christ from sharing the Truth.  What a terrible time that will be, when you can't even speak about Christ to others without fear of persecution and possible imprisonment.  Surely if you haven't been aware up to this point, you are now.  Christians are being persecuted all over the planet and don't think for a second that America is immune from it.  Don't think for a minute that the United States for some unknown reason is excluded from the great judgment that is coming upon it and all those that dwell here.  Surely the protective hand of God is being lifted if not already.

I thought about some of the reactions of this latest ruling and my attention turned toward many who call themselves Christian.  I take a further step back to get a birds eye view of what I see most days and it struck me kind of odd.. The majority of Christians (not followers of Christ - there is a big difference) seem to convey that God and Jesus are here for them, to do for them to bless them to prosper them to keep them healthy and pay their bills by providing good jobs, promotions, favor in every aspect of their lives... all while they do absolutely nothing.  I repeat while they do absolutely nothing for Him.  Sure they give God credit when they are blessed, when they receive a promotion, when they "prosper" in the eyes of man, but thats about it.  It all looks good on the outside, it even makes us feel good.  I can afford a new car, a new gadget, a new something or I can repair something that has been neglected for a while, I can be invited to preach, teach or sing somewhere and that feels good, helps pay the bills... etc  But what does it do for a lost and dying world?  What do those things contribute to a starving child, a drug addict, a prostitute, what do those opportunities for me provide to someone else who has nothing, no shelter, no clothing, no food - to someone who is dying and alone, no matter where they are or the sin in their lives? I hav to include myself in "they" when I speak of these things.  I am praying this post will create a deep and shaking conviction in my heart, my mind and my spirit - that will leave me no choice but to truly and completely surrender to Him in all my ways, and thoughts.  That I might be empowered to go and share the good news of God, and the redeeming power of Him that died for us, Jesus Christ.

Some go to every Church service or function religiously, no pun intended and invite all they see to go as well.  Thats the tag line for many - "Come join us Sunday for Church"... we want the world to come to God on our terms and never consider meeting them where they are.  We invite the world into our so called sanctuary, but we dare not go out to the world as Christ has called us to do.  And what is even more disheartening, often times when those we have invited do show up on Sunday, all they hear is comforting words of how God is writing His story on your life (while that may be true) they never ever hear the salvation message or why they even need to be saved.  They never hear one word about repentance or the times that we live in.  Instead they are wined and dined with the latest popular message, casual coffee and tea, a dynamic feel good worship team and plenty of program opportunities to keep you busy.  They come away feeling good about themselves and about God, but never broken, never in fear for their souls or those that they love.

The mentality of so many people who call themselves Christians, is that of "what I get", "what He does for me, or will do for me"... but what are we really doing for Him?  Singing songs about Him, writing books, producing movies, donating a few dollars to this cause or that cause?    I wonder how much time the average "christian" spends in prayer truly seeking God, truly repenting, crying out to Him in desperation - because its desperation we need in our hearts - just open your eyes a little and see what is going on around you, in the world.  So many people who believe in God, but fail to follow Him, feel entitled.

I promise you I could pull up facebook and find at least a few posts about what God is going to do for someone in the first 10 minutes before I will ever find something from someone publicly crying out for repentance, for a call to prayer, deep true heartfelt prayer, for revelation and discernment.  No, what the world is crying out for is more prosperity, more money, more things, more opportunities to sing here or there, to preach here or there and rarely do I hear of people working to help their fellow neighbor, friend, never do I hear about people making true sacrifices for our King, for Him.  I hear people talk all the time about much they are "blessed" to be able to do this or that, to go here or there, to preach, to sing, to participate in something - but those things those opportunities are often more self gratifying than anything else and rarely do they put food in the mouths of hungry starving people, real food.  There is a famine in the land and its a famine of great proportions - a famine of the true Word of God, of true compassion and sacrifice, of true repentance!

Hasn't He done enough?  Wasn't His death on Calvary enough?  I tell you if I never had another morsel to eat, or any more breath in my body - He was and is enough!

God break our hearts! Teach us to be true living sacrifices for you, not self seeking, make us aware of what truly being blessed is... Let us promote you and not ourselves or what we can do, but what you have done!  That the world would know you are God, and your mercy and grace endures, that we need you, and that without you we would not have life, but suffer eternal death.  Remove the scales from our eyes that we might see and unstop our ears that we might hear!

For me personally, God give me a new heart, one that is ready to sacrifice all for you and I mean all even unto death.  Cause me to seek you with my whole heart, mind, body and soul that I might find favor in your sight, to be humble and constantly in a state of repentance as I seek you more and more, that I might have life more abundantly not with the things of this world but in abundant relationship with You, Your presence!  God help us!  We need you more than ever - reveal that to us, that we would turn from our wicked ways and repent!

Jul 4, 2015


I despise this sin - not because of the people who commit it, but because it only brings heartache and destruction.  I am guilty of the same.  It is a sickness of the soul and it serves no good purpose, but self righteous pleasure.  So many people are deceived because they have believed one lie after another and God will send a strong delusion that they might believe a lie, many lies.  I am praying to God to cause me to have a deep, trembling and reverent fear of His judgment, but even more that my heart would absolutely break when I am faced with my own sin.  That I would be so grieved in my spirit when I think about betraying Him and all He did and does for me.  Oh Lord keep my mind and heart in a constant state of repentance, to humble myself before you and subject all things under your authority, mercy and grace.  That I would completely turn away from the things of this world, turning to you for everything.  Make my heart humble, my mind sharp and make me a living sacrifice, that I might find favor with you, that all of my sins would be remembered no more and that your grace would flood my life.  Empower me to desire every command, every statute, every precept  - to seek holiness and righteousness, that I would forsake all things apart from you!

Jun 26, 2015

I Am Not Alone by Kari Jobe (Covered by Jonathan Schmitz)

Jun 25, 2015

The Middle Lane

I have found when I am not posting something on the blog, its likely because life has stressed me out, I have strayed from God, I have lost my way.  But He is faithful to be waiting for the brief moment when my heart, my mind, my ears are turned toward Him.  Its in those moments, although fleeting at times, that He reminds me of great wisdom, of piercing Truth and most of all His great love for me.

Yesterday as I was driving down the freeway from Paintsville KY to Charleston WV, one of those moments happened.  I was heading to Charleston to stay at a nearby hotel to the airport in Charleston so I wouldn't have to be up so early today to catch my flight back home for the weekend.

Sometimes I tell myself when I am not sure of the way I will be going or the next turn that Siri will say I need to make, that traveling down the middle lane (if there is one) is the best bet.  It seems to provide some sense of balance and sometimes the deceptive idea that I can get in either lane, right or left when the time comes if needed, to exit.  Thats exactly what I was doing yesterday afternoon.  It was quiet in the car except for the hum of traffic. I pondered that thought of the middle lane, the middle way.... and for a moment when my thoughts settled, He spoke.  "The middle way is not the best way".  Then just as soon as He spoke those words to my spirit, He reminded me of the vision I had many years ago The Church of Laodicea and especially this passage of scripture:

Revelations 3:14-22
To the angel of the church in Laodicea write: These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the ruler of God’s creation. 15 I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16 So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. 17 You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked. 18 I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see. 19 Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest and repent. 20 Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me. 21 To the one who is victorious, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I was victorious and sat down with my Father on his throne. 22 Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”

He expanded on what He meant about being lukewarm.  He reminded me of what it felt like to be strung along in a relationship - to be in an unholy soul tie, literally bondage.  It is bondage when love and affection are not reciprocated but yet you don't have the strength to let go, to sever the tie that binds.  You wish the other person would just hate you or return the affection, not on their terms but yours.  You wish they gave as much as you did.  Its a terrible place to be - in a relationship (if you call it that) with someone who gives just enough to keep you bound, but not enough to satisfy.  You question their love for you (which should be obvious) but a relationship like that is one of bondage, of confusion, of doubt, despair and frustration.  Eventually it becomes a burden and more heartache and there is no joy because you eventually realize the truth... that you are just being strung along, so the other person can have their cake and eat it to as we say in the south.  This is no relationship at all.

God was speaking to me without speaking and showing me these experiences in my past as I traveled down the middle lane and recounted the vision He gave me.  The only middle place that is safe, rewarding, satisfying and renewing is the middle of Him, His presence - as He has also shown me many times. Circular Forest- On the Edge He will not contend with me or anyone else much longer if we choose the middle way - He wants our whole heart, mind, body and soul.  He bought and paid for it.  The time is growing short and I am desperate for liberty and freedom from the bondage of this world, the sin in my life.  I am desperate for His presence and a heart that yearns and aches for Him constantly.  He wants us to be completely in love and dedicated to Him, He is tired of being strung along and unlike us, He knows the Truth, He knew it from the moment this dance of ours began and He will not continue much longer.

Surely the obvious exit will soon be in sight and I would rather be in the correct lane, than risk missing the turn or be destroyed trying to get there at the last minute.  God Help Me!  Burden my heart with an aching desire to constantly be in your presence, to seek you in all things, to have a contrite spirit and a brokenness that only you can repair.  Cause my heart to delight in your commands, and all your precepts and statutes - crucify me Father, for there is nothing in me apart from you that is worthy to be called your own.  Make me new over and over again!

When I lay myself bare before you, the glory of your presence shines and reveals all the broken parts and those parts that are about to break, you reveal all things and you are above all things.  You make known the wretchedness of me.... shatter me that you would make me new, restore me and revive me God!  I need you more and more each day, each moment!

Don't wait to get in the right lane, do it now and let God reveal Himself to you, guiding you on the path to righteousness!

Jun 6, 2015


May 24, 2015

shocking compilation: World on the Edge of Something Big... (2015)

Kari Jobe - Forever (Live)

This is such a powerful version of this song and testimony of His greatness!  The First Born of all creation! He is before all things and over all things He reigns!

Kari Jobe - I Am Not Alone (Live)

Apr 1, 2015


When I have had a bad day or week, when I act in ways I wish I hadn't... and those times are frequent some days, some weeks, some times.. I think to myself, God do you measure my sin? Do you see it heaped upon me, at my own hands..?  

I am weary some days, so weary, so tired of this flesh, this intellect, this person that finds himself in this world, but knowing of another. 

The ache in my heart to be free to be liberated and truly redeemed grows as I grow older.  I know the only thing that will ultimately satisfy me is to be in your presence 24/7, to be changed, to be made new once and for all.  To die completely to self, help me get there in this life so that the world see you and never me.  

I have your peace and your joy almost always, an assurance that no other can match.. but here I am, still in this flesh, waiting, wanting, wondering... to be with you, partly because I love you and partly because I want an escape from this world, this life.. not in a sad way but in a weary one.  

I am ruined in a sense, having seen your glory, been saturated in your presence, witnessed a trillion angels singing in perfect praise and harmony...where there is nothing else, and nothing else needed or wanted.  Completely satisfied and filled with unconditional love and peace... I will always be torn until I get to be with you full time.  

Sometimes I just want to go home, I just want to go home.  

Mar 23, 2015

The House that God Built

I was reading something my brother wrote tonight about how pain in relationships make us stronger for the next.  Ultimately what I was hearing in what he wrote in between the lines, what was being said at least to me was a reminder... he was saying that life often times gives us challenges, struggles, pain, heartache and how we react to those times determines how we either use them for our good or how we allow them to continue to hurt us and keep us from something better.

It reminded me of a story I wrote long ago... contemplating a relationship I was bound by, but at the time completely seduced by.  "The House that ____Built"... maybe I will find it and revise it.. I hope I kept it. Because although at the time I was thinking someone else built the house in my heart, the place where this person lived, in reality it was God who was building the house, His sanctuary.  He fortified the foundation with something so simple yet so divine, love.  Pure, unconditional love.  Himself even, although I didn't recognize Him at the time.  I just knew that I loved this person unconditionally and somehow I knew I was experiencing some part of Heaven just by loving.  

God built the foundation, and formed the walls with struggle, with pain, with heartache, with joy, happiness, He used all the emotions real and imagined to create those walls.  They kept some things out and others in.  He covered it with protection a roof that sheltered me when I was uncertain, when I was afraid. He was and is my covering.  He fashioned a door and there was only one key and at the time only one person had the key and knew how to use it.  To come and go as they wished and I was always there, inside this house.. that I thought ____ built.  

But as time grew, as the seasons changed the comfort of having _____ there just didn't seem to fit anymore..  it wasn't complete.  The whole purpose for the house to be built was so _____ could be there, to dwell there, to be at home there.  But it became empty and I was the only one that remained, feeling like a prisoner in a place that no longer could be complete, or so I thought.  It was the most desolate place for so long and the agony of being there almost did me in.  Imagine spending what felt like a lifetime building the perfect home for your mate, the love of your life, waiting patiently on his or her arrival, a place to call home, to be with all your lives... you spend all your energy all your emotion and thoughts on this house, making sure its perfect only to have it abandoned by the one you love.  Such great and deep heartbreak. I can imagine how Jesus feels when He is rejected... He said in His Father's house are many mansions and that He went to prepare a place for us.... all this time... What great sorrow He must feel for those who have forsaken Him.  

But thats exactly what God used to make me realize it was built for Him... the key was never lost or stolen I simply never gave it to its rightful owner.  He gladly accepted it and now dwells in "The House God Built"  and I feel complete again.  Its only a home when He dwells there, when His presence fills the rooms and the warmth of His embrace surrounds me otherwise its a house, that I can allow anyone or anything to occupy. But just as before, those people and things will come and go, some will stay awhile, others will seek shelter and a firm foundation, while others won't even notice it.  But God, who built it Himself, the One who belongs there, the One with the key, is the only One who can make it truly a "home".  He taught me how to love, so that I can love others.  He allowed my heart to be broken, to be shattered and He took all those pieces and put it back together stronger than before, fortified and held with mercy and grace.  

In that house in His home, the walls are filled with reminders of His goodness, His mercy, His grace and patience. Sleepless nights with tears and anquish are like movie screens against the plaster with Him standing there comforting me, restoring me, reviving me.  When I look up and see the roof, I see all the times He protected me, He gave me comfort and how He never walked away from me even when I walked away from Him. 

And when I look down and I see that firm foundation, I can hardly comprehend it.  It shall not be moved.  It has born the weight of so much burden, so much pain, so much sin, so much confusion.  His only Son laid there to be trampled upon, beaten, spat on and pierced... neglected and rejected. But because of that, because of His sacrifice, I stand upon this rock... 

"The House that God Built" my resting place, my home with Him, where He dwells and sings over me with joy!  He says in His Father's house there are many mansions... and that He went to prepare a place for me... but He built one for me here as well, He loves us that much.. and while this place is not my home, its just a house, but He dwells within this House that He Built!!!  

Mar 7, 2015

Post-Op Update - Reality

I am not really sure how this post will go, but I am over a month out past the triple bypass surgery and tomorrow I head back to work.  I am very thankful for a better than normal recovery and the energy I have.  I still have a ways to go and there are many days I don't have alot of energy.  The scars are healing and the sensitivity in certain places, like my left arm and leg are getting better.

On a different note, I remember the nurse that came in to see me prior to surgery telling me that 99% of the patients who have this surgery (CABG/Triple Bypass) go through depression.  While I can't say I feel depressed I can tell you my heart (figuratively) is tender.  It's easy for my eyes to well up with tears some days for a million different reasons.

I have had so many people offer their prayers, their time, their love, kindness, gifts of food, and so many other things I can't begin to mention them all.  This is especially true of my dad and stepmom, Brenda.  Not to mention so many others, so many special friends - you know who you are.  Its a humbling thing, and I am so very thankful for each of you!

Emotionally, its not been that bad, but as I head back into this reality, the thing we all in some form or another call "life"... I realize its not really life at all.  To see so many people going to and fro, with so many busy schedules.  Consuming their time, as they consume what the world has put before them.  Myself included.  Its so difficult to be free of the rat race... as we hear it sometimes called.  I look around me and see what I consider a big house for just one person, with all the things that fill it up and they have no value... but yet I am conditioned to be distracted with getting the deck refinished, repairing this thing or that.  I have to make sure my schedule is lined up, all my bills are paid, the fish and cats are fed, prescriptions filled, insurance paid... and the list goes on and on and on.

Then I hear some of the songs I have posted on this blog recently, especially one in particular "Through It All".. and I can't help but tear up.

Then I take a drive out to run an errand and I see people on the go, everywhere to go by this or that, to run errands, and it all makes me sad in some way.  I can't explain it.

I feel myself wanting to pursue growing a business somehow or any endeavor really.. but yet another growing part of me, simply wants to be free from "the rat race"... I am burdened by this reality and another one that I want more of.... and when I have processed all these things in my mind to the point I can't anymore I break down in tears -- thinking to myself I was on the verge of a fatal heart attack and I have wasted so much of my life, so much.  So much of my time, and the things I have given thought to... forgive me God, forgive me!  I don't want the things of this world, the ideals, the things I have coveted... I don't want that farm in the mountains, or that little house on a plot of land somewhere... I really don't want all those things.  What I find that I want more than anything now... is You Lord!  Its YOU.  Just YOU, you are all I really want and all I really need.

I wish I had the faith and the wisdom to walk away from it all somehow.  I live the most simple life.. this house, the car, the things I have surrounded myself with are burdens and they have made me a slave.. forgive me Father, forgive me!

I really want nothing of this world, but yet I am attached to so much of it.  The fact that I even exist in this body binds me to some degree. I know this is just the way it is...

Things seem to have lost their value, being "successful" doesn't have the same meaning anymore, and while I have known this for some time, my mind is so conditioned to pursue it, whatever that looks like.

So much feels like it needs to change, but I am not completely sure how to go about it.  God grant me more than anything, more than anything I have ever prayed... grant me the desire and the wisdom to pursue you with my whole heart, help me to rid my life of all the distractions and the obligations so that I might be free to worship you in truth and spirit.  Empower me to be a light to others, to be transparent that you might live through me, yielded and hidden in you.  Grow my desire to spend my time wisely, seeking your face and listening for your voice, to be drawn to your presence more and more - because I am realizing more than ever thats all that matters.  Help me, help me become what it is you have desired even if I don't fully understand what that is or means.

I know the times we live in and I know in my heart that your return isn't far off.  Perform a quick work in me, that I might regain all that the enemy has stolen but only for your glory... much of which I have freely given, forgive me Father, forgive me!  I want so much to make YOU my everything, my every thought, my every breath... I know you're sovereign, I know you have my best interests in mind, you love me and your mercy and grace is beyond my comprehension - but quicken everything in me to know YOU more to seek YOU in all things.  To put you before all things.  When my eyes open in the morning bless me with your presence, that I might have you first in my thoughts and throughout the day.

I just want to be with YOU, that is the cry of my heart today and so many days lately.  I just want to be with YOU God.  To see YOU, to feel your presence, to hear your voice and to be embraced by you. To be reconciled back to you!  I just want to please you and some days that isn't easy to do - cleanse me and make me whole, sanctify and restore me to what you have always wanted me to be.