Dec 31, 2012

I Am Speechless

I am just a little overwhelmed again by God's mercy, His grace, His love, His forgiveness.  There is so much I don't understand, or comprehend - and I am such a sinner - wretched, and filthy, blind, naked, poor... but He constantly calls me and my soul longs for His presence and to be with Him.  I want to be made Holy and righteous, to be at His feet, to know Him more than I know myself.

I am speechless sometimes.  Just speechless. This language that I speak - it simply doesn't convey what exists in my heart.  It can't... I get to this realization often - understanding that if I could sum it up with words, in any language or a combination of all - then it would be just that "summed up" and it would be finite, and God is infinite.  Therefore our praise and gratitude must also be infinite, eternal.

I have been praying for a better understanding of the baptism of the Holy Spirit and I will do more research on that, but I think I am realizing that God is causing me to understand other things that are actually pre-requisites of it.... perhaps a test and practice at hearing His voice and recognizing His leadership for my life.

I look back over what many would have called my "religious" life - one that involved going to church, being on the praise and worship team, getting involved...and doing the "work" sorta speak... but it was all just action, just being busy, just getting caught up in emotions and things that "felt good"... and while I know it served a purpose, it was not a relationship with God.  And all the things we are taught, or heard, experienced... much of it if not most of it, was not of God..  I want the real deal......  I want to be completely dead to this "Tim", and be made new, a new creature in Christ, to be completely transformed and transparent.

This "Tim" can produce no good thing, nor is there any good thing in my own heart... I only want to have His, that it would literally beat within me and that I would be found hidden in Him, because all that see me or hear me, would only see and hear Him.  That is my prayer, that is my goal, that He would live fully and freely through this body that He has given me, and that His kingdom would be established in my life, in this world.  That is the great commission right?  Its what I want Lord!  I want people to know you, to understand that the "gospel" which means "Good News!!!" is just that ...its GREAT NEWS... no one has anything to lose...  really.  I mean what we have to trade in only gives us short lived pleasures anyway and given half the chance just destroys us...  we can still love one another like you love - if we just allow you to live and work through us.   What we have to give up are the lies we have believed, lies that only trap us, confuse us, distract us and divide us...  who wants that?

God I believe in you, I believe the Word was with you and that Word became flesh.  That flesh was your only begotten Son and His name, IS Jesus Christ, Jesus THE Christ... who took upon Himself all sin for all mankind past, present and future - and that He died on Calvary for us all, and shed His blood for us all, for all our transgressions and iniquities, and He conquered death, hell and the grave rising again in 3 days, just as it is written.  I believe He sent the comforter, the Holy Spirit and because of that we can go boldly to the throne, into the Holy of Holies and be in your presence... I thank you for that I thank you for that God!!!!!

Dec 30, 2012

Faith - Personal Study and Observations

God has been nudging me to study the word "Faith" and its meaning. What it means to me and how we use the word, what we apply it to and how it impacts our psyche, our well being, or not.

For me, personally, I have always heard the definition that Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen.  So thats where I will start in this personal study and journey of Faith.

The above definition comes from Hebrews 11:1 - "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." KJV

Breaking this down a bit further, I want to understand the meaning of "substance".  According to   substance is that of which a thing consists, physical matter or material; a species of matter of definite chemical composition; the subject matter of thought, discourse, study, etc., the actual matter of a thing, as opposed to the appearance or shadow; reality.

So from this I can gather thus far, that faith is the reality of things hoped for... meaning to me the realization of things hoped for...  I will be honest, that stumps me a bit.  If faith is the substance or the reality of things hoped for, this infers that in some way, or at some level, faith has been justified or proven to a point - i.e. the things I have hoped for have come to pass (not all things mind you) they have been realized and therefore my faith has been validated, justified, proven.

Lets look at "evidence"... if faith is the reality of things hoped for then what evidence has been given of the things not seen?  What is evidence?  Again from the web, "that which tends to prove or disprove something, ground for belief; proof.  Something that makes plain or clear, an indication or a sign.  Evidence in relation to Law; data presented to a court or jury in proof of the facts in issue and which may include the testimony of witnesses, records, documents, or objects.

Hold that thought... I am now thinking of belief.  What is the difference between belief and faith? I ask myself.   Well that leads me to realizing I need to know what belief is and what is means.

Belief - something believed; an opinion or conviction.  Confidence in the truth or existence of something not immediately susceptible to rigorous proof.

Ah ha!  So I can conclude clearly that belief and faith are not interchangeable, because to have faith is to be certain, to know the reality of a thing or matter and belief is an opinion or conviction of a thing, confidence in something or someone that perhaps can't be proven.

Which takes me to a scripture most of us are familiar with.  Matthew 17:20  "And Jesus said unto them;  Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, if ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, remove hence to yonder place, and it shall remove, and nothing shall be impossible to you." KJV

Other translations of this particular scripture have confused many, and the unbelief is replaced with wording that implies we have little or no faith, or not enough faith (see the New Living Translation for example).   These translations seem to cause Jesus to contradict Himself, because He goes on to say that if we had faith the size of a mustard seed, we could move mountains.  How can this be?  Surely the translation is not proper and should be an eye opener to any serious student of the Word, to continue to search and seek the level of Truth that God has intended.  (Thats another blog entry)... but moving on.

I have already established the difference between belief and faith and Jesus actually confirms that distinction in Matthew 17:20 KJV. If I were to translate that scripture passage so that my brain can understand it better I would say to myself:  Because my opinion or rejection of the truth (already proven by the testimonies, records, documents, etc) I am not able to move any mountain because I don't have the assuredness of what God can accomplish through me.  Why don't I have that assuredness, or evidence? (as previously pointed out through the definition of Faith)...  I have come to a cross roads in my study...  and I am realizing or remembering a fundamental Truth about Faith.

Faith = (Belief + Action + Confidence)

Which reminds me:  James 2:17 "Even so faith, if it hath not works, is dead, being alone"

Belief = An opinion or judgement in which a person is fully persuaded.  So unbelief means a person is not fully persuaded, right?

How do we become fully persuaded in something?  For me personally, I have to have proof.  What is proof?  Its evidence and what is evidence?  Its proof...... hmmm.  Its a circle... it meets itself... Am I lost here God?

God is showing me something here.... Faith by its very nature is an aspect of eternity, of God Himself...

Uh oh... I have to go down another path.  I need to understand Faith a bit more before I can continue.  But suffice it to say, there is MORE to come.  I love this journey and I love how He leads me.  Surely my Faith will be much larger than a mustard seed by the time this study is complete.  I will leave on this note as an indication of why we need to know what Faith is, and how important it is to God.

Hebrews 11:6 "But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he that comes to God must believe that he is,  and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him."

Powerful Spiritual Warfare Advice - Russ Dizdar

Excellent show from Omegaman Radio - Surely every true follower of Christ, needs to hear this info....

The Truth About New Year's! Origins of New Years Celebration

The Truth About New Year's! Origins of New Years Celebration

Why Andrew And Crystal Odom's 248 Square Foot Tiny Home Will Allow Them To Enjoy Life More

Why Andrew And Crystal Odom's 248 Square Foot Tiny Home Will Allow Them To Enjoy Life More

Dec 27, 2012

A World Held Hostage

The god of this world rules and reigns - to think otherwise is deception. God gave satan dominion over this world to unbelievers. That is not to say that God isn't superior, He is, but God gave him dominion of this world (of unbelievers)... but those who believe in the One True God, are not subject to that dominion. And through Christ's birth, life, death and resurrection we have power through His Holy Spirit. We are in this world but not of it. God's government will be re-established, but until then it is satan's world. Its up to you to remain captive or not. The TRUE gospel is the coming Kingdom of God, which is what Jesus preached and lived. When the fall of man took place, all men (and women) were subject to that sin and every sin since...we were born in sin and held captive by it. But through the Love of God, His word, made flesh, Jesus Christ, we have been set free, and adopted into the family of God through His blood/death, and have been given power through His Holy Spirit - if we believe and accept Him as our Lord and Savior, confessing our sins and repenting. Turning away from this world, and our sin, and turning to God!

Dec 25, 2012

A Better Place?

I want to first just say, honestly and sincerely I do not and wish not to offend anyone with this post.  But I do hope it will make you think.

Most anyone you ask, who has lost a loved one, will say something to the effect at some point during the conversation "He or she is in a better place"... and that is comforting.  Many of us have gone as far to say "we KNOW" she or he is in a better place, and "we KNOW, that we will see them again".

Many people have remembered loved ones during this time - of celebration of being with family - although this "time" and these celebrations do NOT originate with God nor of His commandments.  I grew up like most and have celebrated this time with family, since I can remember and exchanged gifts, I did this year.  But I can't with a clear conscious continue to do it.  Many who have seen and read these posts have remained silent about it.  But thats not why I write.

I lost my mom in 1998 and I have also said "I know she is in a better place"... but the stark reality, the real truth is "I don't know"... I don't know what her relationship was with God, only she and God knew and I don't know how her immortal life has played out.   Surely, I have recalled the "fruit" she produced in her life, but her relationship with God was her own, it was just between Him and her.  We cannot enter into the relationships with someone else with someone else, they are each individual and we cannot know these things.  We can only recognize others who are true followers of Christ, by the fruit they produce.

For many years, I sought God only to comfort myself and create some sense of self designed security, a belief, but yet a lie, that I would get to that "place" and be with her again.  How absolutely wrong was I.  My goal should have never to seek the reward of Heaven only to be with her to see her again - God of course convicted me of that endeavor long ago.

While I would love to see "Mom" again, my first desire, my first love should be God, and it is. I have reconciled myself to the possibly fact, that I may never ever see the mom I once knew and loved more than anything and anyone, including God.  He has turned my heart toward Him and I am so grateful and humbled by His grace, His love, His mercy.

Should we continue to deceive ourselves of the lies we hear in our heads, some of our own making and choosing?  Should we seek the reward of Heaven, the blessings of God, for selfish motives, no matter how "good" and "comforting" they may seem.

Surely not!

Please do not deceive yourselves for your own sake and those that you love so dearly - to wait until the day you or they are gone, to tell yourselves lies - that while comforting and seemingly provide some sort of peace.

Jesus is absolutely real and He loves each of us beyond measure.  His life, death and resurrection are real.

It is so much easier to believe a lie than to face the Truth.  But I promise you, and as my life is a living testimony, the Truth will set you free.  It will set you free from bondage, false doctrine, a prison of lies, of addiction, of confusion.  God will give you peace and understanding, His Holy Spirit will lead you into all Truth.  And I can tell you from personal experience, that Truth comes in levels and varying degrees but never contradicts itself.  As we seek to know to understand we grow spiritually and our eyes are opened, we come out of darkness and into the light.  It all starts to make sense and as we fill our lives with His Truth and His Word, we are transformed by it.

Do not deceive yourselves, do not believe the lies the enemy whispers in your head, or that are spoken by many.  Seek God for yourself and you will see, persist and commit yourselves to getting to know God on a very personal level.

*AGE OF DECEIT* (FULL) Fallen Angels and the New World Order

Christmas: The Turning Point of History, Matthew Two Douglas Hamp Dec 24...

Dec 23, 2012

Does "Christmas" have its roots in Christ?

Since we as a nation and many other countries are "celebrating" this time of year, I have been compelled to search this matter out for myself. Having grown up in a tradition of "Christmas" and the idea that it is suppose to be the celebration of Jesus' birth, it seems to be the norm and "Ok". However, upon careful consideration and study, scrutiny and searching - the holiday of Christmas does not have its roots in life and ministry of Jesus Christ. In fact, it is quite the opposite. Suffice it to say, that in our modern times, the multitudes that celebrate this time of year, is more about US instead of Him. The origins of Christmas, and all its trappings come from several different pagan celebrations - even the birth of Christ Himself, nowhere in scripture is the date provided.

While I think God honors the faith and intent of those who have not searched the matter out for themselves, choosing to remain ignorant of the origins of their faith, choosing instead to follow the masses in the tradition of man - God is compelling me to get to the root of the matter, in many matters for my own spiritual growth and development. I honestly have been convicted more and more that this celebration as are many others, a mockery to God and what He intended. The traditions of men have been carried out for centuries - and most if not all have their roots in pagan rituals, festivals, etc. This may or may not interest anyone, but I think its important for us to know what God desires, instead of what we desire.

I make no apologies for this position that I take now that I have studied and researched, and praying about.. that God, the Holy Spirit, who (not men or women or false doctrine) leads us into ALL truth!

Jeremiah 10: 2-4 "Thus sayeth the Lord, learn not the way of the heathen, and be not dismayed at the signs of heaven; for the heathen are dismayed at them.  For the customs of the people are vain, for one cutteth a tree out of the forest, the work of the hands of the workman,  with the axe.  They deck it with silver and gold, they fasten with nails and hammers, that it move not."

The Theology of Christ's Birth

Sunburned Part 1

Prepare to challenge your faith and test everything. This particular link challenges the traditions of men and speaks specifically to the tradition of Christmas and Easter.

Brief teaching on the origins of the Christmas Tree and Christmas

Excellent teaching - a short, 28 minute video presentation by David C. Pack, The World to Come, ministry.  "The Truth About Christmas and Many Other Popular Holidays"

The DNArk Knight Phoenix Rising

Dec 22, 2012

There is no Apostasy or Falling Away

Good teaching. Many believers have been following the "traditions" of men, and I for one want to know the Truth, the kind of Truth where the rubber meets the road, sorta speak. So I keep searching, studying, and seeking. The doctrines of men, are not unlike the traditions of men. They have been cleverly corrupted with slight changes in translation over hundreds if not thousands of years. For this cause, unless you continue to have blind belief, meaning the rules you live by are those that have been taught to you by man, I implore you to seek for yourselves. The Truth can only be found if you are searching for it. The only difference, on a microscopic level, between water and oxygen are two atoms of Hydrogen. One you can see and one you can't. But without either, you'd die.

Dec 16, 2012

Christmas & Easter - Are they Biblical?

Dec 15, 2012

2012 Documentary of an Uncertain Future

Anyone waking up yet?

Dec 13, 2012

The DNA Altering Mark of The Beast

Definitely a must listen/watch.

Dec 12, 2012

What No One Will Tell You About The Book of Enoch!

Farewell - From Billy Hobbs

Dec 9, 2012

JUST AS I AM - I Come Broken to Be Mended...

Dream..."The Coming Of Jesus"...Don't Be Blocked

Please please listen to this heartfelt account of this lady's dream. God's time draws so near!

Luke 21:34 And take heed to yourselves, lest at any time your hearts be overcharged with surfeiting, and drunkenness, and cares of this life, and so that day come upon you unawares.

The Evidence - Electromagnetic Changes in our Solar System [A Review]


Thanks again Billy Hobbs, this is something I needed to hear. Its amazing how much hearing this NOW... makes so much more sense to me and encourages me on this journey.

My Friend the Holy Spirit

So simple and so true... thanks to Billy Hobbs...

2 Thessalonians

1 Now we beseech you, brethren, by the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, and by our gathering together unto him,
 2 That ye be not soon shaken in mind, or be troubled, neither by spirit, nor by word, nor by letter as from us, as that the day of Christ is at hand.
 3 Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;
 4 Who opposeth and exalteth himself above all that is called God, or that is worshipped; so that he as God sitteth in the temple of God, shewing himself that he is God.
 5 Remember ye not, that, when I was yet with you, I told you these things?
 6 And now ye know what withholdeth that he might be revealed in his time.
 7 For the mystery of iniquity doth already work: only he who now letteth will let, until he be taken out of the way.
 8 And then shall that Wicked be revealed, whom the Lord shall consume with the spirit of his mouth, and shall destroy with the brightness of his coming:
 9 Even him, whose coming is after the working of Satan with all power and signs and lying wonders,
 10 And with all deceivableness of unrighteousness in them that perish; because they received not the love of the truth, that they might be saved. 
 11 And for this cause God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie: 
 12 That they all might be damned who believed not the truth, but had pleasure in unrighteousness.
 13 But we are bound to give thanks alway to God for you, brethren beloved of the Lord, because God hath from the beginning chosen you to salvation through sanctification of the Spirit and belief of the truth:
 14 Whereunto he called you by our gospel, to the obtaining of the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ.
 15 Therefore, brethren, stand fast, and hold the traditions which ye have been taught, whether by word, or our epistle.
 16 Now our Lord Jesus Christ himself, and God, even our Father, which hath loved us, and hath given us everlasting consolation and good hope through grace,
 17 Comfort your hearts, and stablish you in every good word and work.

Dec 8, 2012

Angels, Demons, Nephilim and Aliens PT1

Mythology and the Coming Great Deception (Rob Skiba) Full Video

Published on Mar 29, 2012
This new DVD traces the trail of foreign gods that were introduced to the Israelites in Egypt and still remain with us, all the way to the present day. It appears a few of them have even landed in Washington D.C.! Zeus lives! If you liked Apollyon 2012 and Nephilim Stargates by Tom Horn, you will love this DVD. One of the most fascinating DVDs I've seen on this subject.

By sharing this, there is no intent of copyright infringement. This was shared via Youtube which is where the video is located.

Updated Secchi Footage of object Headed Toward Earth 12/08/12

Unknown Object Headed this Way In Space Stereo HI2 Update 12/08/12 ~ NOT...

THE POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT Steve Quayle w/Pastor David Lankford

Dec 6, 2012

The Nephilim

You'll want to review this post and study the topic on your own.  However, I have prayed about this and sought God's direction on sharing it.  This is truth, as in TRUTH..  I have studied this topic for a while, off and on over the years and more and more over the past several months.  I have never heard this topic discussed in typical churches and it is likely not to be taught or discussed because it's not "tickling your ears" kind of material.

The agenda of the nephilim is to prepare the world to receive the antichrist.  But prior to that to bring literal chaos.  I personally share a belief with thousands, if not hundreds of thousands of others who have studied this subject and have also discerned the times that we currently live in, that this time of chaos is right at the door.

I will provide several links and references you can research on your own, but I must say, do not, and I repeat do not forsake the Word of God, the Bible, the Holy Scriptures.  My goal in sharing this information is not to cause fear, to start debates or to entertain you.  But in contrast, to draw your attention to God, and His Word.  We will need to be abiding in Him in His word for this time and the times to soon to come.  I can't stress the importance of this enough.

satan, lucifer, the dragon however you name him, his goal is to set himself up to be established as god, and worshipped as god.  The nephilim are a very important part of his agenda and are living among us at this very moment. And the day is coming soon when they will be revealed but that revealing will be during a time of great chaos, torment, torture, and I believe pure hell on earth.  So much of what we are seeing right now, is evidence that this is already taking place and ramping up on an unprecedented scale. DO NOT BE DECEIVED!!!

I will surely come back to update this post with additional links and information as I have time and am able to compile the information in a user friendly format but I urge you first to seek God with all your heart and mind, to press into Him, to develop, re-establish, or start a RELATIONSHIP with Christ.  He is the only one that can save and the RELATIONSHIP will bring you great joy, peace and understanding for the times that we are living in.  He will provide discernment and guide your every step..

So let me start by giving you a very good resource on the topic of the nephilim - Steve Quayle has many books, interviews, etc available online via youtube and his own website

Of course you can do your own search as well.  The following interview with Pat King and Randy DeMain, sets the stage for a foundational understanding of the nephilim, what and who they are, their history and their agenda.  By my sharing of this interview, I am not conveying that I support and subscribe to all the beliefs, ideas, or doctrines of Pat King's website or ministry.  However, I remind all, those who seek God, shall find Him.  Which means all who truly seek Truth, will find it... knock and it shall be opened.  He is everywhere if our focus is on Him, His Truth...and I am also reminded that while I believe everything in the Holy Scriptures is true, not everything that is true is found in the Holy Scriptures.  For that reason, many ancient texts have been disregarded and laid aside by main stream Christianity, some have even taught to avoid it, but I totally disagree.  Mr. DeMain references several ancient texts that are extra biblical but are certainly worthy of your own research and reading.  I highly recommend the book of Enoch, which goes in great detail regarding the fallen angels, the nephilim, and so forth.

The next clip I want to share with you is from "Consipiracy Theory" with Jesse Ventura.  I recommend watching this one right after the above clip.  Currently there is a battle going on between Jesse and TruTV and many of his episodes including this one, could become unavailable.  It seems TruTV hasn't paid Jesse for the last 2-3 seasons and there may be an agenda here to suppress this information.  However, I believe what is being shared is factual and have studied articles and read books concerning the "Skinwalker" ranch, which seems to be a hotspot for UFO activity and has a long history of paranormal activity. You can get a copy of a book I have read, called "Hunt for the Skinwalker: Science Confronts the Unexplained at a Remote Ranch in Utah" at this link.   This is the same ranch Jesse and his team visit and research in the below episode.  I personally believe this could be some portal or gateway for the nephilim and thus why I share it.  The entire "alien agenda" is in fact that, but these "aliens" are fallen angels or disembodied spirits and that fact can be supported scripturally.  You will surely get the "connection" between the first vid with Pat King and Randy Demain and this one.

Once you have reviewed the material, I would highly recommend doing your own scriptural study of the topic and you will soon get the full picture of what is taking place and will be taking place, in my opinion and that of many others of what is about to come upon us.

For other resources I recommend the following, all of which I have reviewed, read or in the process of doing so:  This site is Thom Horn's site and this particular page list several books that tie into this topic which include but are not limited to:  Transhumanism, the antichrist, the nephilim, and many others.  There are a number of video's of Thom Horn and his presentations currently available through video sites such as youtube. I have recently read his book "Forbidden Gates" that discusses the activities that have been and are taking place currently involving transhumanism.  books by Steve Quayle.  I am currently reading The LongWalkers. I am big fan of Steve Quayle and what he has and continues to contribute to the Body of Christ.  I believe Mr. Quayle is one of the most Godly men/ministers on this planet and highly recommend listening to any of his interviews.  Doug Riggs website which includes mp3 files from prior interviews on The Byte Show with Georgann Hughes.  This is another section from Doug Riggs' site that is dedicated to "The Nephilim Mother Project" which is a real project that has been going on for decades that is basically a breeding program for nephillim. These are the actual mp3 file links of the interviews with the nephilim mothers who speak about their history, their involvement with the occult and how this program works, how it has impacted their lives and further details some of hidden things of the enemies agenda.  Please pray for discernment, God's guidance and protection if you choose to listen to these files.  Sometimes the Truth can be a very scary thing, but know that God has not given you the spirit of fear.  Let this be a catalyst for you to draw closer to Him and allow His spirit to reveal to you the times we are living in and to prepare you for coming battles that we must wage with the enemy.  

Finally I wanted to share a short clip regarding the Hoover Dam and how it is literally venerating or dedicating it as a monument to fallen angels via youtube.  The first several minutes of this particular clip covers a few other topics many of you are familiar with, but I urge you to continue to watch it until you get to the section regarding the Hoover Dam and then just listen carefully.

I will add more to this post in the coming days/weeks.  May God Bless You!

Update:  This video clip from Jonathan Kleck, pretty much sums it up.  Please please please, draw your hearts and minds toward God, give your life to Him...  seek Him with your whole heart and mind and be transformed by His Word...  accept His grace and mercy and invite Him in to dwell within you, laying your life down and let Him reign and rule in your life today!

Dec 3, 2012

SILENCE - More Confirmation

While it wasn't a 6.9 or more, shortly after this post was made, approximately 2-3 hours a 5.8 to 6.0 quake occurred 27 miles west of Anchorage, AK. He also again confirms be silent...I am understanding even better now - what God is doing (I hope)..the warnings, the news sharing, resharing, etc...all point to the time we are living in and for those who have discernment understand this...but just like condemning people won't lead them to God, and loving them will - sharing the prophetic events taking place right now will not help anyone who doesn't already know God... you know? Only His word brings Truth, brings revelation....I am so thankful for this confirmation - while I love hearing about the reality of this time we are living in, it serves no purpose to share it when its rejected or just creates fear. Thats why many of you have seen much change in what I share or post... He wants you to chase after Him, to fall in love with Him, to seek Him with your WHOLE matter what takes place in this world, He is the only one that can save, can restore, refresh and renew and reveal. So many of us (me included) will continue to find ourselves calling out to God in the next few days, weeks and months...I just hope it's while we are on this side of eternity... think about it.

I'm getting it... I'm getting it!  Someone help me with this.  All this sharing of stuff, of quakes, of the government activities, the chaos, the wars, the chemtrails, the whatever... is the same thing as the story in the Bible..I forget where or who, but when Jesus calls the guy out of the boat and he turned away for a bit to look at the storm and started to sink...  by sharing all this stuff, we are diverting people's attention away from God.  While our intentions are good, the impact is terrible.  We must draw people To God, through His Word, His love.

That is why He is saying "Silence".. I get it God, thank you and please, please, please forgive me.  Thank you so much for your Spirit, your guidance, your voice, your mercy, grace, love and forgiveness.  Thank you for what you are accomplishing right now and what you have already accomplished through Your Son!!!

Let Them Believe the Lie

For weeks or even months maybe God has been saying some things over and over to me, til I get it I guess, or until it gets confirmed, and when it does I write..or post something about it. For months He has shown me how a great division was taking place, from reminding me of the vision I had of the black and white fish caught along the river bank and the correlating scripture in Revelations where He is speaking to the church of the recent election and the duty and importance of voting for the person whom we thought and felt upheld the most godly principles. Regardless of the outcome our duty and action was important to our spiritual health. I also posted that on the blog as well. Then more recently I keep hearing Him say, "Silence"... and I know there is more to it than this, but today and tonight He confirmed it twice. First let me explain the silence... its not to be silent about His Word, His love, His mercy, Him... but to be silent on the things that confirm the times we are living in. The warnings, the bringing attention to so that others might discern and make a decision to repent... He says in His word that He would bring a strong delusion, that they might believe the lie. This is part of the great division and I feel the great falling away... He is literally going to seal some in their lives of living a lie. I posted something on face book about this particular video clip, that is much more about the prophetic times we are living in and about the prophecy unfolding almost minute by minute... I highly recommend it. Discern from it what you will, but its worth your time. I will also post the message/comment I attached to it on facebook below. God Bless You All! This should be titled something else. There is much more being discussed here from a biblical perspective...I don't agree with everything this guy says but I'd probably repeat verbatim 99% of it, especially the repentance part toward the end. He confirmed something for me that I felt God has been speaking and that is "silence"... not so much about His word and His love, but the warnings, the various news items (He confirmed again today when I posted the thing about Obama's eligibility - I should have listened). God said He would bring a strong delusion that "they would believe the lie" and this is what He has reminded me of lately...and to be silent... let them live the lie....and THANK YOU GOD... this guy who made the above video, confirmed that .. (so twice it was confirmed for me)...he even says the exact same thing "let them live the lie"... I am reminded of a friend speaking about this many years ago... about searing our conscious - I also wrote about the great division taking place, is the same parable of sifting the wheat from the chaff, on my blog months ago..and several times since. I also think I wrote something about this searing of consciousness...... I said it was a time for people to get off the fence, if you are going to believe, believe the WHOLE Gospel of Christ, not the parts that suit you... because this division was taking place, a great division and now... I fully believe God is sealing people in their deception... a strong delusion ...searing their conscious - imagine that... right now, I think some still have a choice to believe one thing over another - but God speaks about a time when He basically seals them in it.. that they would believe it.. and if you believe something, if you are bound to that belief, tied to it, living it... it takes something earth shattering for you to believe anything contrary to it... right? Otherwise you didn't really believe it to begin with... So what this means, is that God is actually going to cause people to believe the lie, because they have played around with it for so long, and rejected the Truth, knowing in their heart they have..... I highly recommend this video... but more than anything, whatever you have heard God saying to you lately, listen to Him and if you havent heard from Him, get on your knees and pray, and seek His voice.. I think one of the first thing's He will say is "I love you" and the second, is "repent"!

Dec 2, 2012

Oprah & Eben Alexander "Proof of Heaven"

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Doomsday Poll

For anyone who visits this blog, I'd like for you to look over to your right once the page loads completely and participate in the poll I have posted regarding December 21, 2012. I am really interested to see or hear what the audience who visits this blog thinks about the predicted/prophesied "doomsday" theories, ideas. Much of this comes from the Mayan Calendar interpretations and study, and may or may not be correct or even close to what their culture implied during their time. There certainly have been many predictions and prophecies regarding this time we live in, and many do in fact point to this particular period. I am just interested to see what you think. Thanks for participating if you do! God Bless!

Nov 30, 2012

Thank you Again God

I am sure people who read this blog may just think I am a broken record, but I honestly can't Thank God enough for the sweetest frustration I know and thats the inability to praise and worship Him, to Thank Him to the degree that satisfies me. I know it can't be done. I remember seeing the billions and billions of angels or beings of light circling all around Him in what I knew to be Heaven in the near death experience, and was amazed, overwhelmed with awe at their never ceasing, never tiring, never a waiver in the pure ecstatic praise emanating from their inner most parts... If we could satisfy ourselves with a million songs, or prayers, or anything in adoration or praise of Him, then it would end and He has no end...its eternal because He is eternal. Imagine when you first fell in love, or even now that special child, mother, father, friend, girlfriend, boyfriend, grandparent... the person that in your heart you feel you love more than life itself... you can't tell them enough, laugh with them enough, cry with them enough, there is nothing you can do to sum it up, to complete it... do you get what I am saying? You want a banner as big as the universe that says "I LOVE YOU!!!"... but you have no way of creating that, no way to tell every living creature great and small how much you love that person...or God. Thats how it is with God... and how I feel in my heart most days. I can't imagine any greater joy, literally.. than to be in Heaven one day and just be able to praise Him without ceasing, without tiring, without giving out of a voice, out of be equipped to praise Him continuously for all eternity. I can't comprehend how that would be possible, but that is one of my prayers. If I can get it right in this life, to be counted worthy because I have believed on Him and what He accomplished at Calvary through Jesus...knowing that He paid the price in full with His own life, His own precious blood... then God, equip me with the voice that is worthy of praising you, one that would never waiver, never tire, never grow old - give me a new song, every day, every hour every minute to bless you, to sing to you to worship you. That is my desire right now and more and more every day. To just be at your feet 24/7 because it would take eternity for me to be able to express this gratitude that cannot be contained!


I am really tired this evening after traveling all day from Texas... but God is continuing to whisper something to me, in my heart, my spirit. And while its an obvious thing to many, and even to me, I keep hearing that word "Pursuit"...and He's starting to give me this story, this picture, this....something. I will keep listening until its all formulated and comes out in a narrative here... But I am reminded so often of how in my own life, He has used circumstances and situations to show me exactly what He longs for, aches for from each of us and that is truly our PURSUIT of Him. For many years, most of my life, I pursued something...not quite knowing what or how to get it... but in the end I know it has been love, plain and simple. Its true..we have a bad habit of "looking for love in all the wrong places" and boy, where it can lead us... can be detrimental on so many levels, even unto death. He wants us to pursue Him, with every ounce of energy, passion, and effort we have in us, to run after Him, to chase after Him... He wants us to fall absolutely in love with Him. For a long time I did that, with various things, people, situations... I wanted what I wanted and felt like I needed. Some of those pursuits pay off in various ways, but the pay off isn't always exactly what we intended, or hoped for...thought it would be. And we end up finding that we have made some pretty bad investments, with no return...or further in debt - mentally, physically, spiritually... its a bad deal. The story and testimony of Jesus Christ, is the greatest Love story ever told, ever lived and is still going strong today. Unfortunately, He is still being rejected, ridiculed, mocked, spat on, beaten, and it goes on and on. We must get to know Him, in order to Love Him. We must pursue Him in whatever way we can, with what we know, and what He reveals. I am sure there will be more about PURSUIT... but thats what He wants, and what we need...

Nov 29, 2012

My Buddy Opey

Just a lazy day pic of the putty tat aka Opey lounging around in his favorite spot

Nov 23, 2012

God's Will for Our Lives

So many people, including myself, have often pondered, wondered, question and doubted God's will for our lives. So many more times, we have chalked up disease, death, financial issues, bad relationships, unforgiveness, resentment, bitterness and so many other things to "well that's what happened, so its God's will". What I have learned over the years, is ..well its not necessarily God's will. He will use anything, even our bad choices, our own free will if thats what we give Him. But surely, He will for us is to prosper in every single way. And I am not talking financial prosperity. So don't think for a minute thats where this post is headed. While I will be the first to admit, I wouldn't turn down plenty of money in the bank - it is not the most valuable thing we can receive. The most valuable thing we can have and experience in my opinion is a close and intimate relationship with God, because then all other things are added "unto us" but we can't have that relationship without the tiny measure of faith He has given to us all. With that faith we can receive the salvation through Jesus Christ, who is very alive and who is literally aching to be united with you, with us. So why do things happen that are less than pleasant? Ask yourself and really be honest with yourself. Bad choices, poor judgment, lack of faith, lack of understanding, lack of desire... thats part of it.. but with all those "lacks" there is a deeper understanding if you ponder enough... if something is lacking what is it? Surely it is Jesus. Just like the post I recently put up titled "Engulfed by Light".. those areas of our live, that we simply subject ourselves to, those dark spots, those things that are not God's will, are the areas where He is absent... What are those areas? Oh gosh I could name a million it seems in my own life, but we are told to bring everything to Him... EVERYTHING. Who do you turn to when life is hard, when you have a problem that seems unsolvable, when you need advice, or just someone to listen? Usually its your mom or dad, or a best friend, but regardless of who it is - more than likely its someone we trust, someone we are IN RELATIONSHIP with, and someone who accepts us, and loves us. So why don't we bring EVERYTHING to God? Because we don't believe, we don't have faith, we don't trust in someone we can't see and touch - again because we don't have faith. But God has already said EVERYONE has been given a measure of faith, EVERYONE. This post can go on forever, but I encourage you today, to find that measure of faith deep down in your heart...and just believe in Him, seek Him, pursue Him - because the world will not have the answer, your mom and dad will have answers, but they won't always be the right ones, people will let you down because they are human, but God in His infinite wisdom and a love for you that goes beyond human comprehension, will supply your every need, He will weather the storm with you, and raise you up, and breathe life into your body, He will renew your mind and spirit, and will NEVER leave you or forsake you. More to come....

Nov 22, 2012

To be Thankful!

So many times in life, I have had ups and downs just like anyone else...and I have gone through bouts of depression, of utter heart ache and despair. I may again some day. One of the toughest times in my life was watching my mother die of cancer, and then of course the day she left this world and passed on into the next. It was a day we all knew would come. The hard part was watching her fade away, and really become someone else besides the person we knew as Mother, friend, wife, daughter, sister and the list goes on and on. Another time that was hard was many years prior to that, when my parents went through separation and divorce and both parents tried to commit suicide at different times.. It was probably a little less hard being younger and not fully grasping or understanding the details of the why's and how's of it all...than it would be today.. but it was still tough to see your family break apart and then the two people who you loved most, be at the end of their ropes, with no apparent hope in sight. Just like many of us, I guess they felt it was a way out of the mess that their lives seemed to be, and an escape from a pain they had no cure. Another time was when my brother was in a terrible accident and he was burned severely. I will never forget that day. Being his little brother, I guess he always had some sense of looking out for me and the day someone drove him up to the baby sitter's - while my parents were out of town, I saw large bubbles and blisters forming on his body and it broke my heart...and in the middle of what I know was terrible pain, he smiled when he saw me breaking down and said "I will be ok, its alright"... I tear up now just remembering that day. Little did I know the pain and anguish he would endure for many months after, or that of my parents. But you know what? God in His infinite wisdom, mercy, grace and overwhelming love for us all - in so many ways, more than I can count, or even those I am not keenly aware of...redeems us, repairs our hearts, clears our minds, and gives us peace. My mom was the absolute best and I am so thankful to have had the years being her son and she my mom. We certainly shared a special bond, not unlike most mothers and their kids. My Dad, he has to be the most generous man I know, kind hearted, loving, and while our relationship wasn't always the best - God has formed one that nothing could break. He is my father! Not to mention he has brought so much humor to my life and I know as long as he has breath - I can count on him. My brother - well I have watched him through many stages of his life, and I know he has had as much if not more heartache than me in many ways. He struggled through so much and just as I, continues to do this day - but like me, we both share some of the best qualities of our parents - and some maybe not so good we have created on our own, perhaps from our parents, maybe not... but he's a good man and like my dad, I know if I ever needed anything, he'd be there if I needed him. He has a good heart. How much more thankful can I be? My parents although separated and divorced, taught me one of the greatest lessons of life... reconciliation. You see many years later, they mended their ways enough that they wanted to be reunited and they remarried on their former wedding anniversary. Through that reconciliation, forgiveness and simple but eternal love, they taught me one of the most beautiful, most powerful characteristics of God Himself...Forgiveness. I know God had it all planned, because He knew the day would come my Mom would need it, we would need to be a family to endure the months of her battle with cancer and subsequent death. Some things have come full circle and to this day I am still learning so much - sometimes from memories, sometimes from a distance, and at other times in the present... just like today. Me, My Dad and My Brother - all very different and certainly would never agree on the same thing twice, or three times (smile) we each love each other - each expressing it differently, but surely we know its there. Family is good... even when one is missing... Some people say its "mothers who are the glue that holds families together" and I can certainly attest to that...because when she left us, things fell apart, we all did for a while. But little by little here and there, I realize that glue still exists, through God, His mercy, His desire that we all prosper in health, peace, and in our relationships... I am so thankful for today - so very thankful. Thank you God for keeping us united in the way you have, for bringing us together today, for nourishing our bodies, but more than that, nourishing our souls. Thank you for reminding me of the most important thing we can have, and that is relationships with each other, but above all, relationship with You.

Nov 21, 2012

The New Jerusalem is Here

The post I put on November 14th entitled "Metamorphosis", now has more meaning... you can read the post here. I had not even finished watching this, and lo and behold...there was more confirmation regarding the "Last Call"... also posted on my blog a few days ago here.

Nov 20, 2012

LA SINK HOLE: Major EQ movement continues

To Be With You

This morning, Lord, I just want to be with you. To be at your feet, and soak in your presence. Some days my heart grows weary, some days I falter, and I wonder how can you, how can you continue to call out to me. Your mercy, is overwhelming and I struggle, ache even at the inability to give back to you in words, in song, in worship, in complete and utter adoration for what you have done in my life. How can you love me so? I cannot comprehend it, I simply cannot, but I accept it, with an over joyed heart, and humility that isn't humble enough. I cannot bow low enough, I cannot sing enough, pray enough.. it is unending and my heart sometimes feels like it will just break into a million pieces, being so full. You have given it all, and yet you continue to give, how can this be? I don't comprehend this great love, I only have seen and felt a small fraction of what and who you are. You bring revelation and each time its like experiencing another facet of your majesty. I ache, yearn, thirst for a way to worship you that would convey what you place in my heart. But yet, I find myself still wanting ...still wanting to say it over and over again, how much I adore you, how humbled I am by you, how absolutely broken I am in your presence. Thank you for turning this dark heart toward you, that it would be transformed and made new again and again. I pray you continue to the point that I would be completely and totally lost and hidden in you. That nothing of me, would exist and only you, your words, your heart, your love, mercy, forgiveness and grace would be seen and felt by all those that see me, that they would see you. For Great is Your Name, and You, and You!!! Are worthy, worthy, worthy to be Praised!

Steve Quayle - Apocalypse Now

Steve Quayle discusses many prophetic words, this particular show aired April 1, 2012 via Prophetic Info Wars. Steve Quayle is truly a man of God. I recommend all of his material, radio shows, interviews and books. You can find his site at

Nov 19, 2012


If you really want to know how things work, watch this entire movie. Then get on your knees and pray, because what is depicted here only a slight scratch on the surface - and don't think for a minute your vote, your political affiliation, your opinion, or your protest will make a difference. During the film the presenter shows the pyramidal structure this evil system works and who is at the top of the pyramid? The global elite...but what he leaves out is who controls them... who might you think that is? I suggest we all get on our knees and pray because if you look around you, closely and then across the oceans to other countries and how one by one they are all falling and chaos is erupting all over the planet - then you must (unless you are incomplete denial in your fantasy world) understand the overall plan and how it all comes into play - and while it may not directly appear to be effecting you right this minute - I promise you it will hit you like a ton of bricks very soon. And I will repost something I fully believe is from God. That was posted many months ago: Revelation and Division posted on my blog 3/22/12: I can assure you the foundations of this earth are being shaken up and will continue. I firmly believe we are in that time frame that many thought would never come, or never affect them - I firmly believe that we are in the period of tribulation and its time for people to decide what it is they believe in and move toward it... period. no matter if it is good or bad, black or white - the days of being on the fence undecided, unconcerned, are about to end. The complacent mindset and attitudes will be shaken to such a degree that people will be divided - starkly divided and the veil of delusion will come off their faces and they will no longer seek refuge in their religion or rebellion They will face a truth they never comprehended.

The Last Call

Recently - I let my expectations of others cause me pain.  Sometimes, those expectations are a return call or text message, maybe even a response to an email - and sometimes I let my impatience cause me frustration and anger.

Jesus made me think of so many who have been hearing His voice for years and sometimes they listen and act, and other times they don't.  Sometimes they say to themselves "I'll do that later".. or "He's not important enough right now, I really don't want to hear what he has to say, or feel the conviction in my heart, that I know His truth will cause"...

How many times will you ignore Him?  Put Him off?  How many times will covet you the darkness in your own heart, that only provides short lived pleasures be it a self appointed sense of power, or physical pleasure whether it be from an addiction, or an unholy relationship or connection?  How long will you withhold the forgiveness in your heart, toward your parents, a friend, a brother or sister, a coworker?  How much longer will you let those things dictate your thoughts, your angst?

How many times?  The day will come sooner than so many think, when He will no longer call out to you.  The time will come when a crisis takes place, that you will have no one to turn to, especially the One who can transform the situation.  Who will you call on then?

He loves you so much more than any words in the human vocabulary can convey, describe - beyond comprehension.

"Come all to me who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest"...

Please seek Him, please listen for His voice and respond - its not to late, but the time is growing short.

Daily Earthquakes since 11/11

Nov 16, 2012

Heart Ache

My heart is breaking tonight. Its so easy lately for me to tear up over the slightest things. When I am speaking about God and His indescribable love for me and for all, to the constant fighting I see among those who call themselves Christians. Its like seeing your best friend or your momma slowly dying of a diseases (and I know what thats like first hand). You feel helpless. You ache for them, you lament. Lament: to feel or express sorrow for, to mourn for or over.

He is answering the prayer I made many posts back about the need to be broken. You can read about that here and here. As I laid here in my hotel room, I asked God to give me His Word... encouragement for all of us. And He told me to start in Ephesians 3 - I recommend the whole chapter, but then as I continued to read, this was the word, for me and for all of us..

Ephesians 4:1-7 - I, therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you to walk worthy of the calling with which you were called, with all lowliness and gentleness, with long suffering, bearing with one another in love, endeavoring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.

That is my prayer, I can hear myself saying that... To all.. being a prisoner of His great LOVE, I beg you even, implore of you, to walk upright to be worthy of the calling He has placed on your life. Be humble, gentle, kind with one another. Be forgiving and long suffering, carry each other's burdens, and let God be your pursuit that we may be united in Him, through peace!  Love one another as He loves us!

My heart literally is aching, with sorrow as I see all around me the bitterness, the resentment, the constant and deepening division. I get so angry and frustrated at the constant reminders so many put out there about the wrongs of others. Don't you see this is a distraction of the enemy? We are denying the divine resources He has given us through His Holy Spirit when we spend so much time and energy focusing on the things of the enemy, and because of that, whether you like it or not, admit it or not,  you are making the things of the enemy, even the enemy himself, your god.

I was seeing in the spirit so many people trying desperately to reach God.. the journey was rough, bumpy and they were fighting with their own demons, their own battles, but along the way others who say they are Christians, were throwing stones in their path. They were heaping piles of trash and rubbish in front of them, as they ran faster and faster...they would pull them aside and say "Look!, Look! what the people are doing, look at the sin they are committing, look! look!"...or they were reliving old offenses, recounting an evil history, and a long line of curses.  "Remember she betrayed you, remember he murdered, he committed adultery, she didn't forgive you, she did you wrong, they forgot you, they mocked you..."

We must, we must get on our knees before God and turn our hearts toward Him, which means we must fill our minds with thoughts of Him, of His ways, and His Love.  We must be doers of the Word and not just hearers.   We must be filled with His light and stop focusing on the darkness, because just as we are filled with Light when He begins to dwell and grow within us through Salvation and Sanctification...through His word, our communion with Him... if our minds are constantly focused on the things of the enemy and its what our eyes are constantly seeking, then we will be filled with darkness, there will be no light in us- Do Not Be Deceived! And be admonished.. repent and turn from this wickedness.

God and His Holy Spirit will lead our loved ones into ALL Truth just as He leads us into all Truth.. we are not equipped, capable or commanded to take on that responsibility or task - its impossible! We can certainly assist and be stewards of the Word, but the Holy Spirit is the Great Teacher.  And what are you teaching when all people see or hear is the ridicule, the resentment and the bitterness toward people who are being influenced by your enemy?  We wrestle NOT with flesh and blood... have you forgotten that?

I beg of you, I beseech you as Paul did, to walk worthy of the calling with which you were called!

Nov 15, 2012

Updated Blog

I decided to change the format of the blog. Hopefully it's easier for everyone to read and navigate.

What Does the Election Outcome Mean?

Recently in a post titled "Voting on Biblical Principles - Are You For God or Against Him"  prior to the election which as well all know by now reinstated Obama for the next four years.  God was revealing something to me during the weeks leading up to the election and the duty I had as an American citizen, but much more the duty I had to fulfill as a Christian, to cast my own vote.

Voting became a number priority for me and in the last hours I had available to cast that vote the magnitude of what was taking place, weighed heavily on my heart and mind.  Something was different about this election and I knew it in my spirit, but couldn't exactly articulate what I felt was stirring in the spiritual realm.  But one thing God revealed clearly to me... I had to vote and I had to vote for the candidate to whom I felt would most support Godly/Biblical principles.  That didn't mean I agreed with everything Romney supported, his ideals, etc, nor did I always disagree with everything that Obama supported, etc.  I realize that regardless of who is in the office of President, the agenda is the same just as it has been since the beginning of the human race.  The agenda - of the enemy has never changed and if the majority of the world hasn't been shaken awake by now, well I am not sure there is much hope for them.

One thing that weighed heavily moreso than any other time when it came to our duty to vote is that I felt strongly God would hold accountable those who opposed Him.  This is no different than anything else we oppose Him in, whether it be our words, our thoughts, our actions, but something about this election, seemed to be paramount, there was an urgency in my spirit about it and I knew that the outcome would be a sign post, a marker, a seal - a flashing unavoidable SIGN that would answer for us  what is in store.

Nathan Leal's message from The Watchman's Cry, confirms this heaviness in my heart and spirit.  God has given this message to so many and I wanted to share this with you.  Please take time to listen to this timely message.  Remember - we wrestle not with flesh and blood...  We need to be on our knees before God, praying for this nation, for God's grace, for the people who govern us, who have power and authority in our governments.

Revelations 3: 5 And there was given unto him a mouth speaking great things and blasphemies; and power was given unto him to continue forty and two months.
6 And he opened his mouth in blasphemy against God, to blaspheme his name, and his tabernacle, and them that dwell in heaven.

Be warned, Nathan's message is somber and many who listen will feel convicted and condemned.  My sharing his message is not meant to condemn, but I tell you as a living testimony to Christ's love, His redemptive work on Calvary, I am being transformed as so many of my posts convey.  I fear for those I love - especially those who have become complacent, who are lost and don't believe it.  Please seek God for yourselves, lean not into your own understanding of "Christianity" or trust in my own words, or those of another seek Him for yourself!  He will lead you into all Truth and I promise because He has promised if you seek Him you will find Him and when you do you will never ever be the same and you will enjoy a victorious life through His spirit.  

May God Bless You All!

Nov 14, 2012


I realized this evening as I finished up the last post...that this blog has truly turned into a "Metamorphosis" ...  God is transforming me over and over and over and I am so thankful and it truly is a Metamorphosis of magnificent proportions!  I am so honored to be able to share this journey with you.

Metamorphosis:  Meta - (in ancient Rome) a column or post, a group of columns or posts placed at each end of a racetrack to mark the turning places.  (Surely in this race, we face twist and turns, thank God He has placed sign posts along the way to let us know when to make a turn or when we are about to change directions).  Meta - in chemistry - pertaining to or occupying two positions.  This definition reminds me of the duality we struggle with... born in sin, but belonging to God, having a carnal mind while we strive to obtain the mind of Christ.
Meta - origin - after, behind, changed, altered, higher, beyond. In the midst of, in pursuit of, in common with.
Meta in medical terms:  At a later stage of development.  Change transformation.  Beyond, transcending, more comprehensive.  At a higher state of development.

Morphosis:  The sequence or manner of development or change in an organism or any of its parts.  To shape.

He is certainly molding me and making me!  God I pray, continue to cause my heart, my body and my mind to yield to your voice, your calling, your discipline, your chastisement.  You are the potter and I am the clay, mold me and make me!!!

Engulfed In His Light - Conception

Engulfed in Light

This morning as I lay in bed, half awake half asleep I began to dream. 

God was showing me something…. It was as if I was dreaming two dreams at once and one dream consisting of flooding, and what seemingly should have been chaos.  I saw large ships full of military personnel in the middle of a city that had been flooded.  I saw people swimming in the streets that otherwise would have been flooded with cars.  I don’t have any interpretation of this part of the dream or this other dream.

Then I immediately saw a representation of myself, my spirit, piercing what appeared to be a sphere of light.  I noticed that it took persistence but after a while the barrier was broken and I was literally engulfed in this light.  What struck me as peculiar was when I was pressing in pushing to break the barrier, the sphere of light bent to surround me…and just when I felt like stopping the barrier broke and I entered into the light.  I was still filled with some darkness, but God reminded me of the scripture that talks about being filled with light.  There are actually a few:

Luke 11:34 Your eye is the lamp of your body.  When your eyes are good, your whole body also is full of light.  But when they are bad, your body also is full of darkness. 35 See to it, then, that the light within you is not darkness.

God caused me to also remember a recent conversation I had with someone when I was explaining what people who have had near death experiences said they experienced when they went to hell.  Aside, from the screams, the fire, the torment one common denominator among most of who have visited hell and come back to live and tell about it, is the utter and complete separation from God they felt. 

He then revealed to me that as we are filled with light, the evil thoughts, or anything that seeks to exalt itself above the knowledge of God, are the dark places.  They simply are places in our lives that God is absent. They either are places that are hidden, that He must reveal to us, or places where we have refused to let Him enter.  

I then realized that the desires of my flesh are fading, God is delivering me!  How is this?  I have always felt like I was fighting and in fact I was, with these things I was in my own strength fighting principalities and powers with my own intellect and knowledge.   We have no power apart from God.  I have no strength and the battle is His, as we press into Him, as we are transformed IN HIM... we move from being a victim into Him as the Victor!

The visual that He gave me of piercing that sphere of light, and as I did it surround me, was His protection. He was that sphere of Light.   Just about the time I was seeing this I received a text message from a dear friend in Christ, Sieglinda who wrote these words:

“Sending heartfelt prayers across the miles for Divine Healing for your back and your every need this Day!  We continue to choose worry or Worship- I’m learning sometimes we experience in our physical body what is going on in the spiritual realm of the Body in these last days ---don’t go inward, keep reaching out.  Your blogs and ministry are right on – so far reaching, amazing, from God. “   

The part of her saying don't go inward, was her saying (at least as I interpret it) is don't keep this journey to yourself, don't keep the good news to yourself, keep reaching out to others.  So as I continue to move further into the center of this sphere, right into His heart (it is my desire) I want to tell the world about it!  But I must go inward toward Him and reach out to others to bring them along with me on this wonderful, life changing, transforming Metamorphosis!!

God revealed to me in the dream and something that was actually taking place at that very same time, that as we press into Him, as we pursue Him, He surrounds us with Light, with encouragement through His presence, His word and His people.  I was so grateful to receive that text message early this morning!!  Thank you Sieglinda, not only were you encouraging me, but you were being used so beautifully by God to confirm His word through visions and dreams at the very moment He was speaking to me!!!!

We must pursue Him!  We must press into Him!  I promise you as I sit here and type - His word is true, His yoke is easy and His burden is light!

He also showed me the image of the miracle of conception.  That process, of the sperm persisting to break the seal, the barrier to enter into an egg is literally a testimony of the Salvation and Sanctification we have through Christ.  Can you see it?  The journey the sperm must take against all odds… the long journey of constantly and consisting pursuing the prize… just getting there is half the battle, then to have the endurance, the strength to continue until the barrier is broken…then and only then does conception begin.  That is when the relationship is formed and all things are made new.  The two join together and multiply and as this relationship continues and the cells which have become to numerable to count, form another living human being.  This embryo grows and forms all the things he or she needs to live life in the outside world.  Eyes to see, ears to hear, lungs to breathe… its simply and overwhelmingly amazing.  God does the exact same thing for us supernaturally to live as spiritual beings through His Word, His spirit. It truly is a miracle!!!

One definition of conception is this:  origination, beginning.    How true is this when we pursue God and receive His gift of Salvation, it truly is the beginning of a new life in Christ!!! 

As we pursue Him, and we press into Him, we are surrounded by light, and when we have that “break through” and we first meet Him, and see Him for who and what He is, we begin to be filled with light.  We are truly transformed….and we truly become children of Light. 

Ephesians 5:8 NIV

For you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord.  Live as children of light.

God’s Word Translation

Once you lived in the dark, but now the Lord has filled you with light.  Live as children who have light. 

There is so much more to this vision, that God is continuing to reveal to me, but I don’t yet have the words to articulate. 

One of the “ah ha” moments is when I realized that this battle is not mine, this war with the flesh – I simply must repent and turn away from sin, and turn toward God.  I don’t need to stand there facing it and fight with it, talk about it or to it… I simply turn my back on it and face Him!!!  When I do a flood of light starts to engulf me, surrounding me, protecting me, encouraging me, lifting me up… and as I continue to press on toward the goal, to Christ Himself, He begins to fill me with light and flooding those places within me that are absent of Him, and my whole body is filled to overflowing with Him, with His light!!! 

I am not sure who this message may bless, but I was just so happy and overwhelmed with the simple revelation of it all.  God is so good sometimes to just “show me” rather than let me struggle to figure it out on my own.  I recounted this today in between meetings with a good friend, Brooke… and I was on the verge of tears so I stopped, while we headed into the meeting.  I am so humbled by God’s love for me.  I often use the analogy of trying to explain what something looks like to a blind man who has never seen – I would imagine it would become frustrating for him with descriptive adjectives of which he also may have no first hand visual knowledge of…  but if his eyes were opened, there would be no need to describe it… seeing is believing and I tell you when God gives me these treasures of just “seeing” it… I feel so humbled and so blessed.

Thank you God, Thank you!!!!!

For those that want to see the miracle of fertilization ... This really gives me a better understanding of the "straight and narrow" path, "many are called but few are chosen"...