Jul 31, 2012

Selling Out...

I’m Selling Out… That’s what I was thinking as I drove to SC yesterday. I was listening to the words of Kim Walker, as she sang “I Surrender”… I’m selling out to His great love. No matter what it takes, it is my goal to pursue Him all the days of my life. To worship Him, to honor Him, to lay it all down for Him. I’m selling out. Let me not get distracted , and set anything before you Oh God! I am absolutely overwhelmed at the depth, the width and eternal quality of this Great Love, that I experience with God. I was thinking… there are no words, in any language, past, present or future, together or apart, individually or combined, that could even begin to express the gratitude that overflows my heart for His great Love… For YOUR Great Love, Father! I’m selling out! I cannot escape the power of His Great Love! I am brought to my knees over and over again as I realize how truly magnificent, majestic, powerful, piercing and beautiful His great love is. How it covers, it supports, it leads, it knows no bounds, it endures forever!!! It conquers and overcomes, it leads the way and restores. It refreshes and renews, it goes on and on and on and on!!!! Romans 8:37-39 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. Romans 5:8 but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Galatians 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God. who loved me and gave himself for me. AMEN for this one, AMEN… Thank you Father, Thank you – for putting me to death, thank for the new creation that is transforming my life. Ephesians 2:4-5 But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ— by grace you have been saved— 1 John 4:9-11 In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing. 1 John 4:7-8 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. 1 Peter 5:6-7 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. Job 34:19 Who shows no partiality to princes, nor regards the rich more than the poor, for they are all the work of his hands? Psalm 86:15 But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness. 1 John 3:1 See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Deuteronomy 7:9 Know therefore that the LORD your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations, Proverbs 8:17 I love those who love me, and those who seek me diligently find me. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. John 13:34-35 A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.” God grant me the ability to show and express this kind of love, that it would be an outward sign to others that you and you alone are my God and I am your servant! Psalm 136:26 Give thanks to the God of heaven, for his steadfast love endures forever. Romans 5:2-5 Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. Colossians 2:6-7 Therefore as you have received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in Him, having been firmly rooted and now being built up in Him and established in your faith, just as you were instructed, and overflowing with gratitude. Hebrews 12:28-29 Therefore, since we receive a kingdom which cannot be shaken, let us show gratitude, by which we may offer to God an acceptable service with reverence and awe; for our God is a consuming fire. “No turning back, I’ve made up my mind… I’m giving all of my life, this time. No turning back, I’ve made up my mind, I’m giving all of my life, this time. Your love makes it worth it, your love makes it worth it all, your love makes it worth it all!!!!!!

Jul 29, 2012

The Daughter of Bablyon

America? The Daughter of Babylon?

There are 223 verses written by 5 prophets, both old and new testament.

All describe a rich, powerful, influential country. God calls the identity of that country a "mystery"..

There are 30 clues, 23 are identity clues, 7 arise out of the phrase "the mother of abomination".

"The Hammer of the Whole Earth"
"The Great Voice"
"The nations of the world stream to meet the daughter of Babylon"
"The center of world commerce"
"..rich luxurious country" 25% of the consumption of the world, we consume 5 times that of other people of the world.

The mother of abomination descriptions - Roe vs. Wade, we force other countries to change their laws to kill babies in their countries before they can do commerce with us. The number is around 143 million a year, approximately a billion since Roe vs. Wade. We lead the world in the amount of pornography that we produce... these are just a couple of clues.

What will happen to the "daughter of babylon"? Basically - we're toast!!!

We have not repented and turned from our wicked ways and God's judgement is upon us.

There will be great civil unrest, blood in the church, in the streets. Great violence. Fighting will take place within the streets. Great division is taking place now, it surrounds us.

We will be totally destroyed once we betray Israel. There will come a point and time when Russia, Iran, etc, will invade Israel, and they will cry out to come save us...and we, the USA will say "No"...

One day, one hour, one minute -

God 9 times in his word, says flee from babylon, come out of the land, come out of her. (I feel strongly this is applies both physically and spiritually - physically in some cases, but always spiritually)

"The End of America" is a book written by John Price.

This synopsis comes from a segment of the mp3 file recording of a gathering of "Watchmen" earlier this year. You can listen to the archive audio file here.

Bargaining with God

Oh God forgive me!! For I have bargained with you so many years, or so I thought. Just a while longer, I would say, just one more sin, one more sexual perversion, one more cigarette, one more self righteous display of critical judgement and condemnation of others. God Forgive Me!!!!

Forgive me of my sin, forgive me for my neglect, forgive me for my willful turning away from you, and blatant refusal to seek you. Forgive me for allowing myself to be seduced by so many things, so many things. Forgive me for the distractions I have consumed myself with, forgive me of the complacency, for the willful disregard of your calling instead pursuing my own selfish desires. Forgive me for leaning on my own vain intellect and self appointed understanding. Forgive me for looking upon and participating in so much sin! Forgive me Father!!!

For you and you alone have caused my heart to melt, to violently shake with fear and then with overwhelming joy. Thank you!! Thank you!! Thank you!! Thank you for drawing me close to you, for confirming your presence when I was in doubt, and thank you for the repentant heart you have caused to form within me.

Thank you for the Holy Spirit, thank you for never leaving me or forsaking me even as I go my own way.. Thank you Father!

Thank you for the light you are shining in all the dark places, for the separation, the purging and division you are causing within my own spirit. Thank you for that God! Thank you God!

God I pray in Jesus name, that you would continue this work in me, that I would literally be crucified for your glory, your name, your honor and your great pleasure. That I would be totally and utterly brought down to my knees that no dark thing would live within me, no hidden sin would have its place within me and that you would purge every unclean thing from my heart, my mind, my lips... leave no stone unturned Father! I pray!

Let only your truth speak through me in my actions, my thoughts, my writings. Give me your voice, that others would see, and hear and seek you diligently with their whole hearts. Help me to live as Jesus did, not condemning nor religious of spirit, but with your great Love, so that others would realize and understand this time we are in.. Father I pray!!

For you and you alone, are above all things. The Great I Am, the First and the Last, Alpha and Omega, King of Kings and Lord of Lords!!!

Continue this work, continue this work, continue to purge every unclean thing from me, that I may be counted worthy and an overcomer for this time - that I would be found blameless in your sight, having been washed with the blood of Christ, and clothe me in righteousness, I pray Father, in Jesus Name!!!


To Search Out A Matter

So often when Christians attempt to be the mouthpiece of God, they fail miserably when they don't point people to Jesus Himself, in the Logos, the Word of God. I have always said that God (the Holy Spirit) teaches us the way we understand, individually. God knows our frame of reference, intimately. He knows our personal experiences, the way we think and the worldview we each have, and each one is different. That is why it is so important for us each to have a RELATIONSHIP with Christ!!!! I have posted on this topic several times in the past few days. RELATIONSHIP is the KEY!!! I can quote scripture all day long and if I fail to point you in the direction of God Himself, I have failed miserably because the Truth of His word does not apply to anyone who does not believe in whole or in part. Likewise Christians are persecuted with the same scripture and principles they claim to live by because of this.

As we confirm truths for our own individual lives, God imparts to us a greater confidence in His Word, His ways and His teachings, in effect the Gospel of Jesus Christ. But we must search the matter out for ourselves, because it is God/The Holy Spirit, He is the only One who can teach us the way we can individually understand. As we seek understanding and truth, diligently seeking His counsel - He reveals Himself to us, and imparts that understanding - and that is when we are transformed.

Do not think for a second, that you or anyone else can have a relationship with God through someone else, through a book, a post on facebook, or anywhere else. You must seek God for yourself.

Jesus spoke in parables so that He could conceal spiritual truth:
"And his disciples asked him, saying, What might this parable be? And he said, Unto you it is given to know the mysteries of the kingdom of God: but to others in parables; that seeing they might not see, and hearing they might not understand." (Luke 8:9-10)
He would then reveal that hidden truth to His disciples:
"But without a parable spake he not unto them: and when they were alone, he expounded all things to his disciples." (Mark 4:34)
This is the manner by which God presents His Word to the world:
"Give ear, O my people, to my law: incline your ears to the words of my mouth. I will open my mouth in a parable: I will utter dark sayings of old" (Psalm 78:1-2)
And He reveals hidden truth to His people:
"Surely the Lord God will do nothing, but he revealeth his secret unto his servants the prophets." (Amos 3:7)
He does this by opening their understanding as they study His Word:
"Then opened he their understanding, that they might understand the scriptures" (Luke 24:45)

This is why we must prayerfully search a matter out:
"It is the glory of God to conceal a thing: but the honor of kings is to search out a matter." (Proverbs 25:2)

(The believers are a royal priesthood (1 Peter 2:9) and they are kings in that they are joint heirs with Christ (Romans 8:17) and reign with Him (Revelation 20:4-6).)

Jul 27, 2012

Where is She Father?

Another poem/prose I wrote maybe in the mid to early nineties, this one also has within it many messages. This was a very lonely time for me apparently, as you will see. After this had been written it made me think of how Jesus must feel, longing to be with His bride. He must also feel incomplete without Her.

Where is she Father?

Where is she Father? I know her face and the smell of her perfume. Her heart is like the sunrise, and her voice is like sweet music. Her eyes are beautiful and her heart searches. Have you hidden her for just a time? Or should this ache abide with me, and find me incomplete many more days?

How long Lord, how long must this composition of my heart go unheard? Or could it be that my eyes fail to see? Does she stand before me and yet I look past her radiance and splendor? Perhaps she stands just out of view, just beyond the edge of this road you have purposed in my life.

I know she is there somewhere! My heart beats with hers and my tears are not in vain - she is alive!!!

When will she come?? When, oh Lord shall I find myself in her arms, listening to her song? I know she must sing of me and she too, longs to be where I am.

Does my song have no purpose? Surely not. It is filled with fervent and eternal love.

Is she like the seed slumbering beneath the earth, anticipating your warm breath to give her life at just the moment my feet should pass by her space in the meadow?

Shall I find her in solitude in the secret place you have chosen, reflecting the most beautiful rays of your light?

Often times the winds carry her song to my lonely ears, and for a brief moment I feel her cheek next to my own.

Or is she like the lonely whippoorwill calling out, waiting patiently for my reply?

Where is she Father?

The Sonrise

I was inspired to write this poem many, many years ago - it literally came to me in the middle of the night as I recall and as I read back over it, I see there are many messages within it's lines. I think it was written sometime in the mid to early eighties.

The SonRise

My love for you is inspired by the light of every day. Like the Sonrise it is quiet and gets brighter along the way.

Let the Sonrise be a symbol of the love I have for you, and never doubt it's strength for it endures through and through.

On dark days you must remember, the Light still remains, behind the clouds and in my heart, this Love will remain unchanged.

And as our days are numbered and the sun begins to set, our bodies become weak, but our heart's won't forget..

That God will bring us together in His Kingdom up above, supported by His strength and guided by His love.

The Son will rise forever in the City made of gold, and we'll always be together, in our hearts and in our souls.

Jul 26, 2012

Love Thy Neighbor

Geez, after a lengthy facebook conversation I am troubled in spirit. Why? Because I realize so personally how the Christian community has failed miserably to follow the commands of Christ and for that reason, "Christianity" to many is a bad bad word. The feeling of rejection, condemnation and criticism are paramount when many, especially homosexuals, hear the word "Christian". This is NOT what God or Jesus intended.

SO what commandment have we failed to follow the most?(There are many) but... Love thy neighbor as thyself. Who is my neighbor? It could be anyone. A black man or woman, rich or poor, someone uneducated, someone old, someone with HIV, someone with an STD, a muslim, a buddhist, a foreigner of any origin... Do we get to pick and choose our neighbors? Not so much. Do we get to pick and choose who God was thinking of when He said "Neighbor"... I don't think so.. Did He mean the neighbors that live right beside you only, or the ones across town? Did He confine "neighbor" to only the ones that speak your same language, figuratively or literally? I don't think so... So what was intended when the word "neighbor" was used in the translation of the original Hebrew text? The word is actually "rei-acha" and refers only to Jews. This view is supported by the context in which the phrase appears in the Torah, which can be translated as follows: "You shall not hate your brother in your heart. You shall not take revenge or feel resentment against the children of your people, you shall love your companion (rei-acha) as yourself" (Leviticus 19:17-18). Looking at this, it seems clear that "your companion" falls into the same category as "your brother" and "the children of your people," all explicitly referring to one's fellow Jew.

According to this view, "Love your neighbor as yourself" does not refer to anyone outside the Jewish people. "Neighbor" is not an accurate translation for the word rei-acha. The Hebrew word for "neighbor" is shachen; the Hebrew word rei-ah means "a very close companion." Sometimes rei-yah is used to mean "spouse." So who are our "neighbors" or "close companions" today? Are they only our fellow Jews? Can we extend the meaning to include "human beings" in general as our companions in our country or in the global village? Or is this too much to ask?

Leviticus 19:33-34 sheds some light on these questions and offers a corrective to the notion that we should love only members of our own tribe or our own collective family. These verses relate to others who live in our midst, "the stranger who resides with you," that is, the non-Jew. What do we do about him or her? How do we relate to someone who is not a member of our people? In these verses the Torah is very clear: you should love the stranger as yourself. Why? Because "you were strangers in the land of Egypt," that is, because of the history of Jews as a persecuted minority in someone else's land, Jews should have a special sensitivity to the non-Jewish citizens in our midst. Christian's should have special sensitivity to non-Christians (ah...thats sort of a no-brainer don't you think?)

Can we further expand on this to say that if the Jews were commanded to love the non-Jews, shouldn't we as "Christians" love non-Christians if in fact that is how we see others, even our "neighbors"... I mean what is the purpose of being a "Christian" if we can't have love for non-Christians?

It doesn't matter what we conclude to be the deciding factor of their Non-Christian status, i.e. their sin, perceived or otherwise.

Isn't it Love, i.e. God, that transforms us? So in our expression of this Love, God within, that would transform others?

Let me remind all who read, what Love is and isn't:

I Corinthians 13

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never fails; but if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part; but when the perfect comes, the partial will be done away. When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.

If we act without Love, then we are acting apart from God and the Truth is not in us. I John 4:8(NIV) "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is Love."

If we are to be true disciples of Christ we must follow his commands and one in particular that relates to this topic as seen in John 20:21-23(KJV) - 21 Then said Jesus to them again, Peace be unto you: as my Father hath sent me, even so send I you. 22 And when he had said this, he breathed on them, and saith unto them, Receive ye the Holy Ghost: 23 Whose soever sins ye remit, they are remitted unto them; and whose soever sins ye retain, they are retained.

Let us treat our neighbors as we would ourselves, let us love one other forgiving each other of our sins, and let this "Love" transform us in our giving and receiving of the same.

Jul 25, 2012

To Look Upon Sin

There is something of a message here in this statement: To Look Upon Sin... this thought or idea has been at the forefront of my conscious for some time. So tonight I took only a few minutes to try and research this idea. Most of what I came up with from the net was that God would and could not look upon sin. I suppose this might be true both figuratively and literally.

Since I haven't taken a great deal of time to research this topic, I will just speak from my heart/mind. Feel free to do your own search if this interests or speaks to you in anyway. I will likely go back and do a more exhaustive search for scriptural references.

God revealed to me long ago that one of the traps we find ourselves in, is the obsessive fascination with the sin of others, the world, our friends, our family members, strangers even. There are so many "legalistic" finger pointers who have convinced themselves they are the walking talking breathing version of "God's judgment" shining a light in a dark place. They constantly surround themselves with a spirit of "self righteousness" and use scripture to point out the sins of others. And when this isn't taking place, many of their communications contain words of condemnation, belittlement and chastisement. I have been guilty of this. Evil is so prevalent in our world, that it at best, is hard not to acknowledge.

These people are ungodly, these behaviors are ungodly. I apply this to my own life - and freely confess this sin. It is my hope by writing about this that we would come into a true understanding of it and acknowledge it.

So as we gaze upon the sin of the world, in each other, we are giving it credit, giving it power, and reiterating it and by default venerating it in a way. As we talk about it, post about, condemn and spend our energy on it - we give it power over our own lives, our speech and our vision. We belittle and dilute the power of God to help ourselves and others overcome it, no matter what it is. We in fact, make it a god above the One True God.

When we look upon sin, we take it into ourselves. We continue to give it life, by submitting our thoughts, our words, our actions to it. God is about to give me an analogy so it is better understood.....

Touch no unclean thing... I keep hearing. What is unclean...this is vile... excrement. Imagine for a moment your child is playing in a pasture and he or she happens upon a pile of dung. He is fascinated with it even though the stench of of it fills his nostrils... and he says, "hey mom, look at this, this is CRAP".."it smells awful, looks awful" and I want you to see this, and on and on and on... and He takes the time to tell the whole world about it, bringing even greater attention to it. It becomes a spectacle and he lifts it up so all can see it... and he takes the time to fashion signs pointing to it saying "CRAP - This way"... "Come see the CRAP here"... "Smell the CRAP"... "Touch it, get to know it".. and "Guess who made this CRAP?" and before you know it there are volumes of information, signs, comments, books, facebook posts, weblogs, podcasts and every imaginable way to communicate this to the world at large, everywhere. As a parent you told him or her to stop, don't look at it, don't touch it, its nasty and vile, and disgusting and has germs, you will get sick, it will make you sick, but he was so hell bent, thats right HELL bent on telling the world about it, that your voice was drowned out and you and your command to "Touch no unclean thing" was thrown out, disregarded and blatantly refused.

Thats exactly what we do when we constantly criticize people and the sins they commit in the "name of God"... its a mockery of the power of God. It reminds me of the story of Peter and the storm... read it for yourself - but don't be surprised as you go around blowing your own horn and declaring this thing or that, you find yourself sinking and gasping for air one day. Our focus should be on Jesus Christ - nothing else, not the sin of the world or those who commit it. Your relationship is not with Christ if you continue to do these things, it is with the sin because that's where you heart lives.

Think about it. I know I have...and while there are numerous things we can discuss and we can point out among ourselves and others, God is the one we need to be talking about because it is God and only God that can save us and deliver us.

The First Epistle written to the Corinthians, by Paul the Apostle is a perfect reference to end this post: 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

If this is not the way we act according to His word, then the Love of Christ is not in us. Let us strive to show this kind of love, this Agape love for one another. Let us not look upon those things that beseech and consume us.

Someone help me out, God is causing me to remember a better story, but I don't remember enough to share it here... there was a parable of sorts and women were cleaning and making the house or something ready, instead of seeking or worshiping God... does anyone know what I am referring to???

God bless!!

Jul 24, 2012

Circular Forest- On the Edge

I am posting another dream/vision I had because I remembered it is in line with the theme that seems to keep emerging... that being - on the edge, on the fence, undecided, uncommitted..

I have no idea how long ago this took place, but as usual I "woke up" in the dream and I was floating above a large forest of trees. The forest was circular. God simply instructed me to observe. So I did and as I watched I saw storms coming, and tornadoes. I watched as the winds tore down the trees, especially the ones along the edge and it was only the area in the middle that was undisturbed.

He was teaching me again that we should be in the "middle" of Him. Just as it was in the dream and theme of the river - we must be in Him.. not on the edge. I think of surrounding ourselves with True men and women of God, and that doesn't mean going to church on Sunday. In fact most the participants in a typical Church service knows no more about God than what the preacher spoke about as they slumber in the pews, or while they are text messaging and reading email. I don't mean to say this to judge, its a fact, its not my opinion. When you find yourself in a life or death crisis and I am speaking spiritually, who do you call? Who can you depend on, who do you trust? God!!! Again we do not form a relationship with God through another. I mean come on.. did you get to know your mom or dad by an older brother or sister? If you did, then you didn't or don't have a relationship with that parent. There is stark difference between knowing about someone, and actually knowing them.

God was also teaching me about perception and reminded me of those that were lost in the wilderness going round and round in circles. If they could only rise above their predicament they would have seen the right direction to go, to get out of the wilderness. If I was at ground level, I may have never seen the storms coming and have no idea what hit me when they did. When we have a relationship with God our perception begins to change and we see things, people and circumstances as He does. This perception is critical to every aspect of our lives. Its the beginning of having what the scriptures speak of as the "mind of Christ"...and I say, the vision of Christ.

I had another dream that emphasized relationship, actually I think this was a vision. I use to work with someone who's name I will leave out and she had a young son, a toddler. I could see the great love she had for him everytime she spoke and I also knew of the great love his father had for him through her stories of everyday life. In the dream, I dreamt of her and her husband and their little boy. We were all standing in a field I believe and were looking out along the horizon, when at least six tornadoes came through - and we were terrified, except for the son. I thought this was odd. God simply spoke to me "Tim he has no fear because he is with his Father"... again God was emphasizing "RELATIONSHIP".. its through this relationship, and only this relationshp we can obtain peace that goes beyond understanding.... of course there are so many other benefits, but this was His message conveyed through the dream.

I have written about "position and perception" earlier in this blog and you can read it here.


I bet many people who know me or know of me, were waiting to hear what I had to say when I made the announcement that I would be writing a few things.

Some are waiting like vultures for any morsel of information, or dirt..any little thing that can be used against me. Others are neutral and intrigued, others don't care, and others are standing by waiting to pick me up when I fall, and shine the light when mine grows dim.

A few folks posted some things about the recent debates taking place with the Chik-fil-A controversy, others are posting about Obama's position, all of it surrounding the issue of gay marriage, and for me personally about homosexuality.

But before I go there - I want to say that I fit into almost every category of "Sinner" as we have been taught, at one time or another. I have lied, cheated, stolen, manipulated others, condemned and judged, ridiculed and criticized. I have been quick to anger and slow to forgive, I have wished someone was dead, I have had numerous addictions of one type or another, I have worshipped other gods, I have coveted, I have committed sexual sins, I have lusted, I have probably done everything that the Bible talks about with the exception of murder (although I know there have been times I probably could have killed someone) and I have committed homosexual acts. I state acts because thats where it started. For these things and these reasons I am no better than anyone else and I am in no position to judge the actions, deeds or thoughts of another.

So as I begin to write, remove yourself from these categories if you choose to read - and if you can't remove yourself then don't read, because the fact that these things are a part of your life, if they are, will condemn you of their own merit, not me. I am not here to condemn nor was Jesus.. He came that we might have life and not just life, but abundant life.

I refer you back to my post that asks the question "Who Are You"... We so often identify ourselves by the job we keep or the position we hold in our families, mother, brother, father, sister... We also identify ourselves by our talents: artist, singer, musician, football player, ballet dancer and so on. We identify ourselves by our geneology: english, italian, american, asian, german, etc. Many times when we don't hold one of these positions, when we are unemployed or when separation and divorce takes place, and especially when we lose someone we love... our identities get messed up. This is especially true when we lose our jobs - sometimes we have an identity crisis... and why is that? Because the things and conditions we usually identify ourselves with are those of a temporal state. We wear many hats throughout our lifetime, but we fail so often to identify with something eternal that transcends that promotion or lay off, that transcends the marriage and death of a loved one. I bring this back up to say I DO NOT identify with being GAY...because I know its not WHO I AM. It may be something I have done, but it doesn't define me. So as I begin to speak about this topic for my own benefit and perhaps that of others, I speak about it as something separate from WHO I AM. I am more than my accomplishments or my shortcomings, I am more than what I know and what I don't.

Keep in mind also this is MY truth, not yours. If you get something from this so be it, but My truth is not up for YOUR debate. I won't go there.

I will reiterate that I do believe what we know as the Bible. I believe everything in it, is True. How I interpret it all and how I apply it or don't to my own life and my world, will certainly vary from yours, and certainly others who make no reference to its pages for guidance. With that said, there is no foundation available for debate of this issue. We will agree to disagree, if that is the case. If you have issue with what I say and believe, I am sorry, take it up with the God of your understanding. I offer no apologies.

Homosexuality for me is an act. Everything else is what people have created in support of those acts. There is nothing "homosexual" about someone who takes an interest in growing beautiful plants, or learning to play a musical instrument, or writing poetry. There is nothing "homosexual" about hobbies or careers that would otherwise be more common to the opposite sex. Thats my perception thats the point I see from.

I have struggled with this issue for most of my life. It has brought me nothing but short lived pleasures, confusion, anger, resentment, bitterness and an aching pain that I don't want anymore. Its ran its course sort of speak and I fear for my eternal soul, literally.

For me, this is not what God intended for my life. Even if we took God out of the equation - the joining of two people of the same sex - produces no life. END OF STORY. There is no argument there. Granted modern technology will allow us to grow babies in test tubes, etc. But in order to pro-create a man and a woman are required at some point in the process. So even in the midst of the confusion I have endured and the unending need to reconcile things in my heart, this fact alone tells me I was NOT created to be with another man. God doesn't create mistakes, or make them but man does all the time.

Why was this a part of my life all this time? I don't know really. But I can tell you what I think. I think every child needs a strong mother and father figure. Without one or the other, I think (at least for me)there is a tendency to seek that out and in so doing, some things can get a bit mixed up. Other factors include early childhood experiences. Forbidden pleasures if you will... They leave a mark and for me homosexuality is a result of an absence of things and an association of others. I will never ever believe the stance that many people take and Lady GaGa belts out, that "I was born this way". I was not born this way. I am a product of the culture, the society, the family life and influences I have experienced. And the decisions I have made consciously and not so consciously.

Its a hot topic today and one that I will not get into for my own personal sanity. I do believe that marriage as defined by God (even if marriage was prior to Christianity as we have been taught) and I believe this because God intended for creation to procreate and you simply can't do that with two men or two women. YES, I believe God loves everyone even homosexuals. This also includes rapists, murderers, child molesters, theives, drug addicts, whores, and the list goes on. He absolutely loves everyone but He hates sin. He hates sin (at least from what I can gather) because it separates us from Him...and thats the last thing He wants.

I have been through this before. Its a thorn that never escapes me. I know I am capable of having a relationship with a woman. But I never did for fear that I wouldn't be faithful. Its all quite complicated and I guess the biggest reason I bring this up. Is because I know in my heart, in my soul, I need to repent and I need to trust God to deliver me from temptation, to give me strength when I have none. And I write about this to "confess my sins" to empty myself of these burdens trusting that God will fill me back up with good things, with knowledge, strength, revelation. Because I honestly believe we are facing a critical time in the history of the world. Thats MY belief and if you don't believe that, fine, move on. But don't come back and ridicule me, or heckle me ok?

This isn't a big deal to me... to share this information, most who know me, knew or know or thought. This isn't the Jerry Springer tell all show, so please, please, please keep your comments to yourself. I honestly don't need the "great job" pat on the back Tim from one side of the group, or the smart remarks and condescending comments from the other side.

This like all my posts is my effort to start anew, share what I know to be true, and if someone gets something from it, great - if you don't then move on and forget it. Its as simple as that.

These things and much of what I am sharing and willl share in the months to come have a connection to an earlier post regarding the purging and division that is taking and will continue to take place. I will repost the original one from March here:

Just sharing a snippet of something I communicated today (3/22/12) with a friend:

I can assure you the foundations of this earth are being shaken up and will continue. I firmly believe we are in that time frame that many thought would never come, or never affect them - I firmly believe that we are in the period of tribulation and its time for people to decide what it is they believe in and move toward it... period. no matter if it is good or bad, black or white - the days of being on the fence undecided, unconcerned, are about to end. The complacent mindset and attitudes will be shaken to such a degree that people will be divided - starkly divided and the veil of delusion will come off their faces and they will no longer seek refuge in their religion or rebellion. They will face a truth they never comprehended

The important part of the post above is "getting off the fence". This theme has been ongoing for a number of years for me and has been reiterated and highlighted more and more in the past several months, weeks, and days.

One of the biggest points of debate and disagreement comes from the "lukewarmness" of people and doctrine. This goes for non-believers and believers alike. This applies to everyone gay, straight, black, white, rich or poor. So many people choose to believe or subscribe to portions of the scripture while throwing out the rest because they don't like it or it doesn't allow them to keep living the selfish life they want, it doesn't nurture their addiction or support an aliean ideal or belief. This is kind of like church you know? Usually if someone doesn't like what they hear or how they are suppose to dress, or how much they are suppose to tithe.. they just move to another church. I choose to believe all of the scripture and if there are sections that say some of the things I do is sinful and an abomnination in the eyes of God, then I accept that and that is why I have a repentant heart and pray for it every day. I am in no position to tell God what areas of my life he can and can't have an opinion or say about. He created me. Who I am to betray that fact?

So let me believe what I will, and let me struggle in my own journey - I don't need you telling me how I should or shouldn't think or how I should or shouldn't live... God is doing a fantastic job of that and I promise you, the road is straight and narrow.

Likewise, I am not here to tell you how you should live yours, you can only discern that for yourself and seek God (if you so choose, yourself). I am more than willing to give up any earthly pleasure for the eternal life I know exists, not believe, but know. I know for a fact that this body will come to its end one day, and I know for a fact (again relevant to MY truth, not yours) that there is a life beyond this one that isn't dependent upon this flesh and bone. I know for a fact that I am more than what you see, or that I see when I look into a mirror. And when that day comes, when I take my last breath and pass from this world into the next, I want it to be with the God that I have come to know and love. That is why I am making a conscious choice to go through this transformation that I trust God will complete. Whatever it takes, I am willing to give up any and everything and I mean that... nothing or no one is excluded. I know for a fact I will be persecuted for what I believe, and it doesn't bother me. I trust in Him. I have been rejected on every level in every possible way, and that doesn't bother me either - I just don't want to be rejected by Him. I am willing to endure the persecution, the ridicule, the rejection from friends, family, anyone...and I am willing to die for Him. Whatever the cost, I will gladly surrender all to be with God for eternity. I've already been there once (read the near death experience posts) if interested. Its the only place I want to return.

I don't have all the answers, in fact I have very few, but I know what my heart tells me what the near death experience has taught me, the visions, the dreams, and what God Himself has shown me. Again these are all my truths not yours (the reader) you have to find your own if you are seeking.

And I will leave this post like many of the others. If you believe in God, no matter what you have heard others say, or how much you have been condemned by others, He has the answers and He accepts you just as you are.. really. But none of that matters if you don't seek Him. You don't have to go to a church, you don't even have to go to the bible (i.e no need to wait).. you can call on Him with an honest and sincere desire to connect with Him and I promise you just as He does, that He will answer, He will respond to you. His love for us goes beyond any comprehension we might have of Love. It's undescribable, unending, permeating, powerful and perpetuating. His love truly knows no bounds.

Maybe I will expand on this post later, because there is much I have not included here, but it covers the basics. It is my hope and desire to be a better human being every day, but more importantly to become what God desires me to be. To be transparent so that His love is evidenced by the things I do and say, that my thoughts are always on Him and focused on His will for my life and this world.

Clarity and "housekeeping"

A sideline post to better explain my position regarding these posts and as we call in the business world at the beginning of a meeting, a "few housekeeping items to go over".. .this is typically where you tell everyone to please turn off their cell phones, when lunch will be served, where the restrooms are and there will be a question and answer period at the end of each session.

Well, we aren't in a meeting or seminar - so these things don't apply but what does - is what I expect and what you can expect from me:

1) I will always tell you I am not the authority on any subject. For that reason, you should not question ME so much about what I share, but question God, perhaps there is a message for you in what I share, maybe not.

2) I will NOT debate on anything. Remember this is MY truth, not so much yours. If you want to adopt it so be it, if not no problem. This is why you will hear me over and over and over and over (get it) and over again-- encourage people to have their OWN relationship with God. He will use anything He chooses to reveal Himself to YOU. If that means what I write is used by Him to show you some aspect of His character, His great love, His ways...then the purpose of these writings has been served. None of it has any value without your own purposeful, intended search for Him.

3) I have no problem expanding on my experience, any dream or vision and certainly welcome any positive comments, or questions, sharing of your own experiences - true fellowship. But check your intention at the door. I have prayed many many years for discernment and I trust God He is capable of providing that discernment when needed. If your intention is to debate, or try to prove a point and its not truly out of love then it will not be received and you are serving no good purpose. If you know God's word and God Himself, then you know He disciplines those He loves... thats right HE does it - its His place not yours unless you are truly in a God ordained position of authority over me, appointed by God.

4) Lastly - I am wrong a million times, I am fallible, I am human, I am a sinner, I make mistakes, I am only here by the grace of God, and I will only continue to be here by that same grace. With that knowledge and truth - know that we are all "being perfected in Him"... not without Him.

Enjoy the posts, allow God to use what He will in your own life to give you a greater revelation of Himself... Keep what you want, throw out the rest. And remember... The Truth/God will show up wherever you look for Him whether its in the lines of these posts or the song the whippoorwhill sings, He is everywhere, always, in all times.

God Bless!

Church of Laodicea - Purging and Division

I must remind all who read, I am not a Bible scholar - you can search these matters out yourselves and by all means provide feedback. I am only sharing what God has shown me in the visions/dreams with some scriptural references, when I get the chance I will go back and add more to the posts to relay them to scripture, as He leads/guides..etc.

The last post The False Church, was expanded on quite extensively in a series of what many would call "open visions" or "out of body experiences" - I don't know what to call it but it was more than a dream. Thats all I can say. It was very very real, very vivid. For many years, God "teaches" me things or shows me things by going to a particular river. This post actually covers more than one "visit" to the river, but tells a complete story. Think of it as episodes of a TV show, or chapters of a book.

In this particular vision or dream, I woke up in it.. hard to explain, but I was aware that I was in the dream, very cognizant of the fact that He had lead me here for a particular reason. I was walking when I "woke" up toward the river and He told me to watch and observe - so I did. This river had very tall wide and large banks around it, almost like a large ravine or canal. As I approached I noticed that the water had recently crested/flooded because there was debris among the bushes and the grass had a pattern about it that indicated the current had been up higher prior to my arrival. I continued walking down the embankment and I came across a large bush that had trapped within its branches a very large and quite beautiful fish. The fish had perfectly formed black and perfectly formed white scales. This is important to note. These were not black and white scales, but individual black and individual white scales. This obviously caught my attention and immediately the question popped up in my head as to what and why this was, what did it represent. The answer didn't come immediately. He wanted me to continue down to the water's edge. So I did. He told me to notice the current and how it moved. I observed the current and He caused me to look beneath the surface of the water. Below there were large rocks that had been worn smooth, and the current was the fastest in the middle. When I observed this and came to these realizations He then told me to notice the water along the edge. So I did. He wanted me to look closely. So I watched. What I noticed were swirls of water (like in most rivers or streams) and in those swirls I saw debris caught up and algae beginning to form as the water was becoming stagnant and not moving as quickly as it would out in the middle.

That was what I remember. As a few days passed I questioned God about all that I had seen. I wanted to know first about the fish that was caught in the bush. He caused me to remember my favorite book of the Bible, Revelations. I don't know the whole story, but He caused me to turn to the section where the letters were written to the various churches, in particular the Church of Laodicea. This is what I found: Revelations 3:1-21

To the Church in Laodicea

“To the angel of the church in Laodicea write:

These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the ruler of God’s creation. I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked. I counsel you to buy from me gold refined in the fire, so you can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so you can cover your shameful nakedness; and salve to put on your eyes, so you can see.

Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.

To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on his throne. He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”

He was literally showing me this passage in symbols. So that I might understand "where we were today"...The fish represented the luke warm church. They felt they had need of nothing they had acquired wealth - the fish was beautiful and perfect in appearance. The black and white scales represented the lukewarm, neither hot nor cold. If the fish had been all black or all white.. He would have preferred it, "because you are neither".. This fish was literally spewed out... the flood of the river cresting had caused this to take place and this "lukewarm" church was purges. God caused me to feel like this was what was taking place somewhat on a small scale at the time, but I believe very strongly this division or purging will reach a much greater scale. I believe that we will begin (if not already) see a stark difference between His true followers and those who follow and worship other gods.

I realized that my observance of the current and how it was strongest in the middle, was to show me that we must be "in the middle" of Him, we must seek Him with everything we have - just jump in and go with Him! It is in the middle of this current, where we are "moved" we are carried to new places, new vision, new and renewed communion with Him. It is also the place where we are transformed... the rocks no longer had jagged, abrupt edges, the current had worn them smooth over time and the water flowed freely over them. Thats how it is in life you know? As our relationship grows in and with Him, the small stuff we are always sweating become so insignificant. We are molded and truly transformed.

The last part of this vision/dream - concerned the swirls along the bank. These swirls represented what many believe and hang onto as "moves of God"... this is a mockery of God, to continue to hold onto and to seek manifestations of something. It is NOT of God. Perhaps God performed a miracle at some point in time and because people are so "hungry" for something, they tend to "eat" anything and try to recreate it or actually worship it. It is true! The swirls contained CRAP and DEBRIS and the water was growing stagnant and going absolutely NO WHERE!!!! He clearly told me "Tim these are the people who seek the blessing but not me!" They die here and the never receive anything new.. they are stuck here going round and round and round. This is a very dangerous place to be! Again He emphasizes RELATIONSHIP with Him, or else we might just get caught up in this never ending cycle of nothing! Just because someone is acting like a fool in church, or someone is wailing out, or barking like a dog, or rolling on the floor like a lunatic, does NOT mean its from God, quite the contrary. Thats why we should seek HIM in all things. Just because it walks and talks like a duck doesn't mean it is! I could expand on this so much more, but you get the message.

God I pray for every person reading this post to have discernment, to seek YOU and YOU alone with their whole hearts!

I want to also link to a previous post regarding this "division" that is taking place here.

Stay tuned, more to come.

Jul 23, 2012

False Church

I am on a roll tonight. I know God wants me to share these things, and so here I go. I know that when I share what I have in my heart - when it is empty, He will fill it back up.

I have had many dreams, some I remember quite vividly and others not so much. I can't recall the time this took place, but I do know that I must have been questioning God about what I was experiencing in "Church" at large (not a particular church) and the battles I was going through trying to reconcile what I knew in my heart was right, and what I was seeing or witnessing. Some things sometimes, just don't "add up" you know?

On this particular night I had a dream that had me floating above an old city - the only thing I could compare it with would be like Venice. The buildings looked ancient, some were in decay and their colors had faded. They were all surrounded by water, dirty water. In the middle of one of the waterways within the city (streets) stood an old woman. She wasn't pretty. In fact, my first reaction in the dream was "God she is ugly"... really. He (as He always does) instructed me to observe and just ponder, to look and take it in. So I did. I noticed what she was wearing, it was a sleeveless blouse or sweater like top. There was a pattern of fruit on the blouse and it looked like they were made out of frosty type sequins. He made me think of how long ago people "preserved" fruit with sugar. Things like apples and pears and how they had a frosty appearance. Then He told me to watch what she was doing and the expression on her face. She was in waist deep and she was slowly moving her hands across the surface of the water ....back and forth - and she looked at me - she had sort of a smirk on her face... and she looked back down at the water as she slowly moved her fingers across the surface. The smirk conveyed a message of mockery.

He showed me what she was...a false church,a false system of beliefs of twisted doctrine and ideology. She was a harlot really, disgusting and vile. Her face was wrinkled and she wore no makeup. Her blouse represented the "church's" obsession with preserving "fruit" i.e. fruit of the Spirit, but not God's. She was adorned with it...it covered her body. It was disgusting really. The fact that she was waist deep was also a mockery and her bare skin (arms/sleeveless) blouse was also a mockery. There was no life in the city, there were no people, they were no were to be found, because they to were "dead"... She was "playing" with what many thought to be "moves of God" or blessings... the water was a clone of sorts, it was dirty - but water all the same. It wasn't pure - and it was stagnant. She found great pleasure in doing this - and the movement of her hands across the surface was mockery.

This all perplexed me for some time, but God continued to give me dreams and visions and expanded on this revelation.

We must pray for discernment. Much of what we see today in Church, is far from what God intended it to be. He confirmed this over and over again in many dreams and visions.. I will share another after this post, but not sure when I will write it. Tomorrow comes early and I have to work!

God bless every person that reads this and I pray that He will open your eyes and heart, that you may see what He has shown me.

The Days of Noah

The second post in this series of New Beginnings: One vision God gave me many years ago, remains with me, and I am still learning from it. I have probably posted something about this in the blog somewhere, but I want to revisit it because I think it is very important to consider. I use to work at Chatham Hospital in Siler City, NC (The home of Aunt B from the Andy Griffith show)... I use to travel from Cary and cross over Jordan Lake. The lake would overfill every once in awhile and the water would flow into the forest. One day as I was traveling to work, the sun had not long been up...(and I was going through a very trying time in my life, probably the most trying time I had ever gone through - even moreso than the sickness and death of my mom which was a few years prior)...so I was seeking God diligently hoping to get some relief from the heartache and pain I was enduring. I was attuned to His voice. As I traveled across the bridge that morning... time seemed to stop and in what I know was a short span of only a few seconds - God spoke to me very clearly and asked me to "notice the lake", the water and ponder it for awhile...and as I did, He caused me to think about the "Days of Noah"... on the surface I am not sure what most people think of other than lots of rain, an ark and alot of animals! But what He revealed to me was the ONLY thing that made a difference during that time and the times we live into day. No it wasn't the ark, or the animals, it was the relationship Noah had with God. Think about it (if you believe) if it wasn't for that relationship - none of us would be here.

Ponder that one for a moment. You are here because someone had a connection with God. Not just any connection I might add.

Then He told me to think about the water... and how it had flooded. So I did... I thought about the creatures in the water and how they were in new territory, there were probably new things to eat, new crevices and structures to explore - they probably witnessed things, plants and other creatures they had never seen before. I could go on and on. Thats when He showed me how the flood was a blessing to Noah and his family, to all the living creatures that he placed in the ark with him. That in itself is a no-brainer, but God showed me how this curse actually was a blessing to Noah... it was the water/flood that literally lifted them up, but it was also the very thing that destroyed everyone and everything else!!! Get it? What was the difference? The difference was the relationship!!! God was emphasizing RELATIONSHIP... nothing else!!!!! The ark was symbolic of that relationship, something it took a while to build, something that started from seemingly nothing...but a desire to hear, to seek to know God. WOW!! I am still learning stuff about this vision.

We must seek God for ourselves, we cannot foster a relationship with Him through someone else. We can hear about Him, read about Him, sing about Him, write about Him, create art depicting Him.... we can do all these things, but until we seek Him for ourselves we will never know Him. Going to church on Sundays or any other day, watching evangelical TV - doesn't do it. We must we must seek Him!!

I must pursue Him with my whole heart, mind, body and soul...I must.

New Beginnings

This is the very first of a series of posts, that I will be sharing with the world (i.e. whoever comes across this blog). As I sit here and listen to "One Thing Remains" I am reminded that I am something other than I allowed myself to be. The "I" in "me" the person that God created the one who was born to two loving parents the one who as a child was a little "different", the one who in the beginning and to this day heard the beat of a different drummer. But the sound of that beat has faded in times past, and somewhere along the road I found myself lost.

I can't begin to know where it all started - and while I have ideas, which I may or may not post here... the bottomline is this: I want to get back to a place to the crossroads to which I made a few wrong turns, down a bumpy path, sometimes to a dead end. Where the destination isn't exactly what I had hoped it would be. How do I do it? I don't know but I do know one thing - I must back track - I must try to undo all the wrongs, I have committed by confessing the truth of so many things, but more than anything the truth of who I know I am versus the lie I believed I was...

Maybe I should have started with this... I believe in God, one true God, the God of all. And yes, this God, is the God of MY understanding, but I believe that THIS GOD is the one true, all knowing, all powerful God that is and ever will be. Does He fit into modern day Christianity or some other religious culture we have become so familiar with or enemies of? NO!! NO!! NO!!. I was raised a traditional Southern Baptist in Eastern NC and while I believe every single thing we find in what we have come to know as the "Holy Bible" I certainly have not lived it. Does this mean I am a radical - absolutely not.

I am struggling for my own life, my own sanity in the contradictions that I face daily, with what I was taught, and hear, and see - I can't begin to force these beliefs or ideals on another human being. But what I can do is strive desperately to Love like God/Jesus did and does today. Wasn't that the first commandment? To Love your neighbor as yourself? I am sure many people would argue if that was actually the first commandment - some would say to have no other gods before the one true God. I agree with both and so that is the goal I pursue.

So this is the start. Recognizing that I am not what God intended me to be, not living the way He intended me to live. This is not about someone else, about some political affiliation or some culture, or subculture. This is about me putting it out there, being honest, sharing with God and the world - a struggle and a truth that just might shed light in a dark place - that I would no longer find myself in this place, but that I would truly become transparent, so that what I know lives beneath all the SIN, yes SIN, would shine through. And through that transparency someone even just one, might see what I know to be true. I am so thankful to God for the near death experience which I am sure I will reference often as the weeks progress. For without that experience, there is literally no telling (yes thats southern) where I would be.

I have bargained with God for years, as I am sure so many have...and I know my time is running out, if not the world's. I have had many revelations and dreams, that for the most part have kept to myself. I will be sharing some of those here in the coming weeks.

I have learned some very hard lessons, and I am still learning. I know that we have entered into a time of great division (this was a vision as well) and in that division so much change is and will be taking place. In my heart of hearts, I am extremely fearful - which most do not want to hear and I personally want to move past that. The fact that I am fearful tells me I do not have what I need, which includes knowledge, revelation and a daily close connection with God.

It is my hope, that all who read this post and the ones to come, would also search their souls, their lives and pursue God - however, whoever you perceive God to be...because it is through that pursuit, that God reveals Himself to you. It matters not if you were raised a Christian, a Buddhist or you are an atheist - There is a God!!! And everything that surrounds us and is evidenced by creation itself - literally screams OUT... THERE IS MORE THERE IS MORE... there is something MORE beyond our 5 senses. There is something Divine evidenced in everything around us and you must question it you must seek... God honors that you know? Its like taking a leap of faith and simply extending your hand out into space, believing that something or someone out there will respond. I promise you He does!!!!

I am no Bible scholar and if someone were to ask me to prove something to you, I doubt that I could, but thats not why I am here. I can't prove anything only God can. I can only share my life experience with you in hopes that you would get a glimpse of something greater at work, something Divine - something and someone I call God.

So let it be... change is afoot and it starts with me. May God bless you richly and may you seek the God of your understanding with your whole heart, and He will reveal Himself to you... I promise.