Oh God forgive me!! For I have bargained with you so many years, or so I thought. Just a while longer, I would say, just one more sin, one more sexual perversion, one more cigarette, one more self righteous display of critical judgement and condemnation of others. God Forgive Me!!!!
Forgive me of my sin, forgive me for my neglect, forgive me for my willful turning away from you, and blatant refusal to seek you. Forgive me for allowing myself to be seduced by so many things, so many things. Forgive me for the distractions I have consumed myself with, forgive me of the complacency, for the willful disregard of your calling instead pursuing my own selfish desires. Forgive me for leaning on my own vain intellect and self appointed understanding. Forgive me for looking upon and participating in so much sin! Forgive me Father!!!
For you and you alone have caused my heart to melt, to violently shake with fear and then with overwhelming joy. Thank you!! Thank you!! Thank you!! Thank you for drawing me close to you, for confirming your presence when I was in doubt, and thank you for the repentant heart you have caused to form within me.
Thank you for the Holy Spirit, thank you for never leaving me or forsaking me even as I go my own way.. Thank you Father!
Thank you for the light you are shining in all the dark places, for the separation, the purging and division you are causing within my own spirit. Thank you for that God! Thank you God!
God I pray in Jesus name, that you would continue this work in me, that I would literally be crucified for your glory, your name, your honor and your great pleasure. That I would be totally and utterly brought down to my knees that no dark thing would live within me, no hidden sin would have its place within me and that you would purge every unclean thing from my heart, my mind, my lips... leave no stone unturned Father! I pray!
Let only your truth speak through me in my actions, my thoughts, my writings. Give me your voice, that others would see, and hear and seek you diligently with their whole hearts. Help me to live as Jesus did, not condemning nor religious of spirit, but with your great Love, so that others would realize and understand this time we are in.. Father I pray!!
For you and you alone, are above all things. The Great I Am, the First and the Last, Alpha and Omega, King of Kings and Lord of Lords!!!
Continue this work, continue this work, continue to purge every unclean thing from me, that I may be counted worthy and an overcomer for this time - that I would be found blameless in your sight, having been washed with the blood of Christ, and clothe me in righteousness, I pray Father, in Jesus Name!!!