Nov 16, 2012

Heart Ache

My heart is breaking tonight. Its so easy lately for me to tear up over the slightest things. When I am speaking about God and His indescribable love for me and for all, to the constant fighting I see among those who call themselves Christians. Its like seeing your best friend or your momma slowly dying of a diseases (and I know what thats like first hand). You feel helpless. You ache for them, you lament. Lament: to feel or express sorrow for, to mourn for or over.

He is answering the prayer I made many posts back about the need to be broken. You can read about that here and here. As I laid here in my hotel room, I asked God to give me His Word... encouragement for all of us. And He told me to start in Ephesians 3 - I recommend the whole chapter, but then as I continued to read, this was the word, for me and for all of us..

Ephesians 4:1-7 - I, therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you to walk worthy of the calling with which you were called, with all lowliness and gentleness, with long suffering, bearing with one another in love, endeavoring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.

That is my prayer, I can hear myself saying that... To all.. being a prisoner of His great LOVE, I beg you even, implore of you, to walk upright to be worthy of the calling He has placed on your life. Be humble, gentle, kind with one another. Be forgiving and long suffering, carry each other's burdens, and let God be your pursuit that we may be united in Him, through peace!  Love one another as He loves us!

My heart literally is aching, with sorrow as I see all around me the bitterness, the resentment, the constant and deepening division. I get so angry and frustrated at the constant reminders so many put out there about the wrongs of others. Don't you see this is a distraction of the enemy? We are denying the divine resources He has given us through His Holy Spirit when we spend so much time and energy focusing on the things of the enemy, and because of that, whether you like it or not, admit it or not,  you are making the things of the enemy, even the enemy himself, your god.

I was seeing in the spirit so many people trying desperately to reach God.. the journey was rough, bumpy and they were fighting with their own demons, their own battles, but along the way others who say they are Christians, were throwing stones in their path. They were heaping piles of trash and rubbish in front of them, as they ran faster and faster...they would pull them aside and say "Look!, Look! what the people are doing, look at the sin they are committing, look! look!"...or they were reliving old offenses, recounting an evil history, and a long line of curses.  "Remember she betrayed you, remember he murdered, he committed adultery, she didn't forgive you, she did you wrong, they forgot you, they mocked you..."

We must, we must get on our knees before God and turn our hearts toward Him, which means we must fill our minds with thoughts of Him, of His ways, and His Love.  We must be doers of the Word and not just hearers.   We must be filled with His light and stop focusing on the darkness, because just as we are filled with Light when He begins to dwell and grow within us through Salvation and Sanctification...through His word, our communion with Him... if our minds are constantly focused on the things of the enemy and its what our eyes are constantly seeking, then we will be filled with darkness, there will be no light in us- Do Not Be Deceived! And be admonished.. repent and turn from this wickedness.

God and His Holy Spirit will lead our loved ones into ALL Truth just as He leads us into all Truth.. we are not equipped, capable or commanded to take on that responsibility or task - its impossible! We can certainly assist and be stewards of the Word, but the Holy Spirit is the Great Teacher.  And what are you teaching when all people see or hear is the ridicule, the resentment and the bitterness toward people who are being influenced by your enemy?  We wrestle NOT with flesh and blood... have you forgotten that?

I beg of you, I beseech you as Paul did, to walk worthy of the calling with which you were called!

1 comment:

  1. I am just as guilty as the next person of doing these things but God continually is transforming me. The reality of this deceptive ploy of the enemy hits right at home. But must pursue our relationship with God moreso than we ever have at this time because of the growing evil that surrounds us and the time that we are living in. We cannot pursue this relationship if we are constantly focused on what the enemy is doing through others.