God is so faithful! He is always ready to keep His promises, to exercise His commitment toward us. For many months, weeks and days I have had a growing burden on my heart and a growing fear of God. He says in His Word, that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.
I see what is taking place across the land, across the entire planet. I have watched for many many years the things that tell me we are certainly living in that time prophesied centuries ago. A time when darkness envelopes the earth, when wars and rumors of wars are evident, when natural disasters and calamity grow worse and the hearts of men turn toward selfish pleasure. I have been one of those men.
I have grown sick of this world, of my own sin and betrayal of the One who freely offers a way to salvation and abundant life. I have felt many times that I was on the brink of death of going over the edge of being sealed in a fate I feared, but God had other plans, He always did. He called me first, before the world and all that is in it did. He was first and will be the last.
Ephesians 1:3-5 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and blameless before Him. In love. He predestined us to adoption as sons through Jesus Christ to Himself according to the kind intention of His will...
He has answered many prayers. One of those prayers has been and continues to be to grant me repentance, to give me a repentant heart.
2 Timothy 2:24-26 The Lord's bond-servant must not be quarrelsome, but be kind to all, able to teach, patient when wronged, with gentleness correcting those who are in opposition, if perhaps God may grant them repentance leading to the knowledge of the truth, and they may come to their sense and escape from the snare of the devil, having been held captive by him to do his will. (He is still working on me here)
2 Chronicles 7:14 If my people who are called by name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.
1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Acts 3:19 Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord
Ezekiel 18:21-23 But if the wicked will turn all his sins that he hath committed, and keep all my statutes, and do that which is lawful and right, he shall surely live, he shall not die. All his transgressions that he hath committed, they shall not be mentioned unto him: in his righteousness that he hath done he shall live. Have I any pleasure at all that the wicked should die? saith the Lord God and not that he should return from his ways, and live?
2 Peter 3:9 The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.
Proverbs 28:13 He that covereth his sins shall not prosper, but whosoever confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.
Acts 2:38 Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.
2 Corinthians 7:9-11 Now I rejoice, not that ye were made sorry, but that ye sorrowed to repentance: for ye were made sorry after a godly manner, that ye might receive damage by us in nothing. For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death. For behold this selfsame thing, that ye sorrowed after a godly sort, what carefulness it wrought in you, yea, what clearing of yourselves, yea, what indignation, yea, what fear, yea what vehement desire, yea, what zeal, yea, what revenge! In all things ye have approved yourselves to be clear in this matter.
I am undone by your mercy and grace and you confirm your Word to me over and over again. How great you are, my God!
Psalm 119:174-176 I long for your salvation, O Lord, and your law is my delight. Let my soul live and praise you, and let your rules help me. I have gone astray like a lost sheep, seek your servant, for I do not forget your commandments.
I can't imagine anyone that truly wants to make God first in their lives, to know Him, to experience His presence like never before... I can't imagine not constantly seeking repentance to be free of sin to be made holy and righteous before Him. I can't comprehend anything less because the enemy has sought to destroy me from every angle, at every breath. Surely I have been deceived on many levels and as God sets the captive (me) free, He also reveals the enemy's devices, He identifies those areas where I was weak and disillusioned, deceived and determined in my own strength.
What a time we live in! What great darkness abounds and appears to be growing at a rapid pace. For a long time my intellect and assuredness of what the enemy was doing caused me to be self righteous and I obsessed about the things that drew my attention. Having thought this was important and that I was somehow in the know about so much, I became prideful in my heart and it eventually led me down familiar paths, paths that led me into deeper bondage to sin. God revealed to me, that while it is important to not be ignorant of the enemy's devices, it would be of no value if I didn't know Him.
I could go into so much detail and write a hundred books on various topics, things I have seen, witnessed and educated myself with along this journey - but to no avail if I am unable to tell you about the One who overcame and the way He has made for us. To be co-heirs with Christ!
I can feel and sense in my spirit through His own, that we are approaching so much, so much I can't convey with words, with writing, or any form of communication. I have prayed for a long time off and on: "God where are the true saints?" I need that kind of accountability in my life, I need to see the Church in the glory and power that you spoke of so many times, so long ago. Where is that Church? Where is your Bride Father? The world needs your Church, they need to see you through the ones that you are raising up. We need you Father! We need you, where are the saints Lord, where are they?
He has given me many visions and dreams, many I don't even remember the details of but understand the Truth that was conveyed. He has also assured me of so much through those same visions and dreams, which I can't forget. One being of a great division or perhaps "falling away" that will be witnessed which I now understand at least in part, is needed because more and more the true followers of Christ, the true saints will be revealed. As the darkness grows darker, the lights will shine brighter! He showed me the false bride or church years ago and I am seeing it clearer and clearer today. I am amazed at Him, truly amazed at the reality of God!
I almost can't even listen to a preacher, teacher, pastor or evangelist ordained or not, that do not speak of repentance especially at this critical time in the history of the world. The time is so very very short.
I use to have a growing fear of what was and is taking place in the world today, but more and more He is giving me a great peace that I can't really understand or convey. I am almost filled with an overwhelming excitement of the things to come because I know while there will be great turmoil, persecution and evil, there will also be a great outpouring of His spirit and the Church the true Church will be revealed. It will become so crystal clear to so many that are seeking Him and His presence. What an awesome time it will be! I relayed this feeling to a friend via facebook today and the only thing I can compare it to, is like the bubbling of a very deep and large well... bubbling up and its so large that I hear a distant roar, not like a bubbling, babbling brook, but of a mighty ocean, even the joy that this represents seems overwhelming. The peace is overwhelming! Its like hearing or feeling the whole expanse of Heaven and everyone that inhabits it, along with the angels innumerable keying up to sing the most powerful and mighty song or chorus they have every sung, never before. Its overwhelming I tell you! It reminds me of the near death like experience I had and witnessed billions upon billions of angels singing in perfect harmony, but this is different, this is more powerful, more exciting, than anything ever before. Everything will be shaken, almost as if eternity itself could be shaken... its an awesome sight, and feeling.
He is girding my path as it becomes more narrow and straight. This is His Word, that His spirit within me bares witness with.. I can see it so clearly - His Truth is girding up my path! Almost like the corralling of livestock as the entry way into the slaughter house grows more narrow, only I am no longer being led to slaughter!!! Praise God! The enemy works the same way, only he captivates you with sin, with self seeking desire, with lies! We are deceived into believing lies, and when we realize the truth, we find ourselves in bondage, only to be fed more lies that there is no escape! But praise God, He has made a way! He has made a way!
Psalm 119:7-15 I will praise you with an upright heart, when I learn your righteous rules. I will keep your statutes; do not utterly forsake me! How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your word. With my whole heart I seek you; let me not wander from your commandments! I have stored up your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you...
Psalm 119:34-38 Give me understanding, that I may keep your law and observe it with my whole heart. Lead me in the path of your commandments, for I delight in it. Incline my heart to your testimonies, and not to selfish gain! Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things; and give me life in your ways. Confirm to your servant your promise, that you may be feared.
John 8:34-36 Jesus answered them, "Truly, truly I say to you, everyone who commits sin is the slave of sin. And a slave does not abide in the house forever, but a son abides forever. Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed."
I could write for many more days on end without stopping. Surely my prayer continues to be: "Father draw me close, continue to grant me a repentant heart that I might draw closer to You and be found worthy to even be in Your Presence. That I would forsake all the things of this world to glorify You. That I might be a light unto the world as you have called me to be, by the power and purpose of Your Spirit alone! Father my heart cries out to You that You would reveal Your power and might to the world through those You call your own! That Your people who are called by Your Name, would humble themselves and repent! That you would pour out Your Spirit upon all flesh! Do a quick work in me:
Joel 2:24-26 The threshing floors will be full of grain, and the vats will overflow with the new wine and oil. "Then I will make up to you for the years that the swarming locust and the gnawing locust, has eaten, the creeping locust, the stripping locust and the gnawing locust, My great army which I sent among you. You will have plenty to eat and be satisfied and praise the name of the Lord your God, who has dealt wondrously with you; then My people will never be put to shame...
Joel 2:28 And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh; your sons and daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, and your young men shall see visions.
Isaiah 61:1-3 The Spirit of Lord is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek, he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; to appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.
Surely a shift is taking place within my spirit, and I know its because I have prayed for repentance and He has answered me! Thank you Father, thank You!
And something new that has come about... I have asked Him to grow my faith.. He is doing just that! I don't know how, but in times past when I prayed for something, I typically left the prayer with hope that He heard me, hope that it would come to pass. Of course some of those prayers were answered in the way I wanted, and some were answered with "No".. but I didn't realize it was "No" until I realized it was "No" that I needed. Today that still holds true, but now I can see past the obstacles, the doubt, the fog if you will. I can see the promise, I can see the answer on its way, although I can't make out the details, I can certainly make out His faithfulness! Which to me is worth more than the thing or situation I may have prayed about. Its like a super-sized blessing, beyond words! His Faithfulness - it melts my heart really.. To see His promise! I wish I could explain it better, but I simply am left without words!