God has put fear in my heart, which is an answer to prayer. He says in His word that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.
Proverbs 9:10 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.
So few in today’s world even believe in God, or rather believe God. There is a huge difference. Many believe He exists, even satan does, but few very very few believe Him at His word for a million reasons. The whole world has been deceived on so many levels for so long, I am not excluded.
The time is very short, the world around us is collapsing, evil is on all sides and the depravity and perversions grow by the minute. I have been a part of this, but God has called me out, to be holy, to seek Him, to seek righteousness and I have been such a hypocrite. God forgive me! My heart is dark and my intellect deceives me. Yet, He still has not forsaken me. I fear that (like many) I will suffer great judgment and wrath, but He speaks to me saying He is still here, there is still time for me to repent of my sins fully and to walk in His ways. The carnal mind has such great power over our flesh, but He has greater power. Many times I have tried to “figure it all out” and try in my own strength to withstand temptation, but I have failed miserably. I want nothing of myself to exist anymore. I am wretched, poor, naked and blind. God forgive me! God forgive me! Surely, surely I pray God give me wisdom, give me strength, give me the desires of YOUR heart and not my own, my heart is dark and evil.
Jeremiah 17:8-10 For he will be like a tree planted by the water, that extends its roots by a stream and will not fear when the heat comes; but its leaves will be green, and it will not be anxious in a year of drought nor cease to yield fruit. The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; who can understand it? I, the Lord, search the heart, I test the mind, even to give each man according to his ways, according to the results of his deeds..
Mark 7:20-22 "That which proceeds out of the man, that is what defiles the man. "For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed the evil thoughts, fornications, thefts, murders, adulteries, deeds of coveting and wickedness, as well as deceit, sensuality, envy, slander, pride and foolishness.
I need a new heart! I need a new mind.
Psalm 51:10 “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me”
Ezekiel 36:25-27 Then I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean, I will cleanse you from all your filthiness and from all your idols. Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will be careful to observe My ordinances.
A new mind comes from:
Romans 12:1-3 Therefore I urge you, brethren, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies a living and holy sacrifice, acceptable to God, which is your spiritual service of worship. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect. For through the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think more highly of himself than he ought to think, but to think so as to have sound judgment, as God has allotted to each a measure of faith.
Ephesians 5:26 That He (Christ) might sanctify and cleanse it (the Church) with the washing of water by the word.
I must continually wash my mind, that it might be renewed, with the Word of the Lord.
He has placed such an urgency in my heart to walk upright, holy and blameless before Him! I am also burdened with many “things” of this world and while He is calling me to great repentance and time alone with Him, in His Word, in His presence - I must also cast off the things of this world both physical and spiritual. I am not fully aware of what this ultimately means, but He has urged me to start with my house - to sell many possessions or at least give them away. For now that seems a little overwhelming but He is bringing me to a place of not wanting anything, because lately everything seems to be a burden and there is no joy or satisfaction in the things I possess. I also recently withdrew from online classes that I was working on toward the completion of a degree - and He revealed to me that these are just burdens during this time. I will have no time to complete the degree, I feel very strongly - not because I think i won’t be here, but moreso because the work of Him in my life is becoming paramount. A degree in the times that are upon us will have no value. I have wasted so much time and I pray that He will do a very quick work in my life, my spirit, my mind!
My office is filled with books on many topics, many that have helped teach me a little about God and about the world we live in from a spiritual perspective, but none of it has great value. The books themselves simply take up space and cause me to have attachments to an intellect that in the light of God’s wisdom, is foolishness.
He is the great Teacher! His Spirit is here for us, for just that.
John 14:25-26 These things I have spoken to you while abiding with you. But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to you.
John 14:16 And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever.
John 16:13 But when He, the Spirit of Truth, comes, He will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on His own, He will only speak what He hears, and He will tell you what is yet to come.
1 John 2:27 As for you, the anointing you received from Him remains in you, and you do not need anyone to teach you. But as His anointing teaches you about all things and as that anointing is real, not counterfeit, just as it has taught you, remain in Him.
He reminds of this passage as I close today’s post.
Habakkuk 2:1-3 I will stand on my guard post and station myself on the rampart; and I will keep watch to see what He will speak to me, and how I may reply when I am reproved. Then the Lord answered me and said, “Record the vision and inscribe it on tablets, that the one who read it may run. For the vision is yet for the appointed time; it hastens toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it tarries, wait for it; for it will certainly come, it will not delay…."