Mar 17, 2013
All Consuming Fire
First of all I have to say Thank You Lord! I have been distracted, dismayed, and deluded a little these past few weeks. The waves of change are sometimes overwhelming and as you continue to answer the prayer "break my heart"... I feel like the breath gets knocked out of me at times. The flesh rises up and seeks to resurrect the Tim you are crucifying. Yet, you still grace me with your loving presence. How can this be, that you would continue to strive with me, to continuously forgive me... that is your love... it is your great love for me!!!
As I sit here tonight listening to Jason Upton sing to you with some of the purest, deepest and most sincere praise and worship... you open my eyes yet again..
When God speaks to me, often it is through visual images and glimpses of a scene or scenario...
Sometimes, many times I am finding, God simply wants us to be silent, to wait on Him and let His presence permeate our being. Have you ever loved someone so much so deeply - that just being in the same room with them is enough? Its simply and magnificently enough. There are times in our lives (more often than not) that we simply just don't know what to say, how to say it. This is especially true when we find ourselves at the feet of a God so big, so alive, so powerful and so loving - there are simply no words in any language that can convey the overwhelming awe of Him. His majesty, His goodness, His grace, His beauty, His love!!!
As I listen to Jason sing from the deepest part of his being... "I'm tired of telling you I will follow when I know I really won't. Cause I'd rather stand here speechless with no great words to say. If my silence is more truthful and my ears can hear how to walk in your way. In the silence you are speaking, and in the quiet I can feel the fire. And it's burning, it's burning deeply." (Jason Upton)
When I was a kid, I would take a magnifying glass and concentrate the light of the sun onto grass clippings... with patience and precision.. the grass would start to smolder, smoke would start to rise... the heat would increase, the smoke would increase and after a while, in an instant a flame would ignite and the clippings started to burn, the fire grew. To a kid it was like a miracle. Who would have thought the light could create a fire?
Thats how it is with God you know? "Sometimes there is no language, no language, but a cry. Sometimes there is no language, no language, but a groan!!!" (Jason Upton)
When we are coming to the end of a situation, a circumstance, even ourselves - there is nothing left to say, nothing left to do, but simply cry out to Him and be still...and be in His presence. And as we wait upon Him, as we seek to go deeper into His presence... His marvelous and glorious light starts to pierce the darkness and as we wait, and we start to feel the burn, the circumcising of our hearts... the heat increases, it becomes intense and He literally ignites us from within!!
In that moment, in that submission to Him, He will consume all those things that seek to exalt themselves above Him and the knowledge of who He is. His light will reveal everything within us. Even those things that can't be named, can't be called out. When we are coming to the end of ourselves, this is exactly what we need.
This is the place I want to remain. In the silence, in the things I cannot speak, or convey. I want to be yielded completely to Him, that His fire might come down and consume all those things that beseech me, that seek to control and influence my thoughts, my speech.
"Without the fire we'll never fly, to the heart of heaven. Can you hear God's holy cry from the heart of heaven? Lay it all down, lay it all down, lay it all down, for the heart of heaven!" (Jason Upton)
He is an all consuming fire.
"Therefore since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our God is an all-consuming fire."